......loneliness is with me .....!!!

walking on my way

all the moments are burning

how far I have walked

don't know the distantance

feeling the fire around

flames are surround 

but, get some shelters

still some shadows with me

walking on my path

lonely with myself

nothing to remember

don't want to remind

smile is my friend

enjoying all the moments

though all are burning

feeling the flare with glad

sometimes the waves of wind

touch me till my soul

all feelings come in heart

it is like my first love

the slow cool  air

sometimes lets me relaxed

but, my path calls me

and started walking again

nobody is with me

don't want anybody 

feeling happy alone

loneliness is with me .....!!!

......may God bless you ..... !!!

feeling so lonely

where to go?

just thinking

it's so deep pain

so much I feel

distance I have walked

like burning in desert

throat is sour

no any hope in eyes

all the ways are closed

burning desert is opened

love in my heart

still more than sky

can't imagine you

can't scream your name

don't want to spoil

your name and life

just burning and burning

the painful life ahead

watching you with prays

may God bless you ..... !!!

..... you don't know .....!!!

कैसे बताये क्यूँ तुझको चाहे, यारा बता न पाएं 
बातें दिलों की, देखो जो बाकी, आँखें तुझे समझाए
तू जाने ना...
मिलके भी हम न मिले तुमसे न जाने क्यूँ
मीलों के है फासले तुमसे न जाने क्यूँ 
अनजाने है सिलसिले तुमसे न जाने क्यूँ
सपने है पलकों तले तुमसे न जाने क्यूँ

निगाहों में देखो मेरी जो है बस गया
वो है मिलाता तुमसे हुबहू
जाने तेरी आँखें थी या बातें थी वजह
हुए तुम जो दिल की आरजू
तुम पास हो के भी
तुम आस हो के भी
एहसास हो के भी अपने नहीं
ऐसे हैं हमको गिले तुमसे न जाने क्यूँ
मीलों के है फासले...

ख्यालों में लाखों बातें यूं तो कह गया
बोला कुछ ना तेरे सामने
हुए न बेगाने भी तुम हो के और के
देखो तुम न मेरे ही बने
अफ़सोस होता है दिल भी ये रोता
सपने संजोता है पगला हुआ
सोचे ये हम थे मिले तुमसे न जाने क्यूँ
मीलों के है फासले...

कैसे बताये क्यूँ तुझको चाहे, यारा बता न पाएं 
बातें दिलों की, देखो जो बाकी, आँखें तुझे समझाए
तू जाने ना...

.... Became addicted with ....!!!

जुदा होके भी तू मुझमे कही बाकी है
पलको मे बनके आंसू तू चली आती है
जुदा होके भी

वैसे जिंदा हु ज़िन्दगी बिन तेरे मै
दर्द ही दर्द बाकी रहा है सीने मे
सांस लेना भर ही यहां जीना नही है
अब तो आदत सी है मुझको आइसे जीने मे
जुदा होके भी तू मुझमे कही बाकी है
पलको मे बनके आंसू तू चली आती है

साथ मेरे है तू हर पल शब् के अंधेरे मे
पास मेरे है तू उजाले सवेरे सवेरे मे
दिल से धड़कन भुला देना आसन नही है
अब तो आदत सी है मुझको आइसे जीने मे
जुदा होके भी तू मुझमे कही बाकी है
पलको मे बनके आंसू तू चली आती है

अब तो आदत सी है मुझको आइसे जीने मे
यह जो यादे है..
सभी काटे है..
कटा दो  इन्हे - 2
अब तो आदत सी है मुझको

......day will rise again ....!!!

Feeling so feared

Even can't take next step

so lost and scared

can't see anything around

How far am I?

How far is my destination

don't know the distance

can't see a shadow or shelter

Stood in dessert

burning in heat

thirst in my throat

stops my breath

all around me

like trees in garden

can't say anything

but try to give shadow

Don't know the place

life has brought me where

can't say a word

crying without tears 

World has won

I have lost everything

still hope in heart

day will rise again ....!!!

......till the end of time .....!!!

days are so burning

each moment is dazzling hot

feeling the flames in heart

life hits me

don't know the destination

where am I going?

Just started walking alone

maybe you are behind

how far have I walked?

Don't know the place near me

all my desires faded away

just walking alone to somewhere

not crying and not sad

but also not happy

what to say about me?

Breaths have kept me alive

world is still that

whatever it was before

but my world is changed

Like blood without colour

Looking at the sky

and talking with God

it has become my routine

need the breath of comfort

want to see the light

Searching the glimpse of love

calm to my heart

the smile makes me smile

the moment of pure love

walking alone for love

on path of life

may be the day will Come

when life will smile

till the end of time .....!!!

.....let it make me alive ...!!!

each drop in eyes

desperate to rain

the night seems so dark

made me sleepless

watching all around

all appear empty

me and my solitude

alone with each other

eyes on feet

don't know where it's going

hopes are so far

but, still having dreams

something is somewhere 

calls me loudly by silence

in search of nectar 

which is named 'love'

walking on path

the way of life

nobody cares for me

my tears or my smiles

but my heart says

someone is waiting 

who will rain love

the nectar itself

which will show me lights

but having no hopes

and no thoughts in mind

destiny creates hope

let it make me alive ...!!!

..........want to give by heart .....!!!

remembered those days

missed the smiling moments

how far I have walked

away from that shine

it was the time

when all my breaths

and heart beats

filled by pure love

all the time I felt

pink world in mind

love still exists

want to rain over the land

which needs to be wet

want to melt my all

nothing to say more

just forgot everything

forgiven all by heart

love is gift of God

want to give by heart .....!!!

.....never let me cry.....!!!

always in my eyes

you are with smile

glimpse of heaven

comes in mind

you're like an angel

who makes my day

all of your words

always more than gold

your eyes create magic

and seem like sea

in which I sink 

don't want to come out

just sinking in your love

enjoying each moment

always feel so calm

I got heaven

in my useless life

each day and night

you are in my breaths

distance doesn't matter

when true love exists

you are so near

and also far

want to hug you tight

same like two waves

melt in each others

leave all your deeds

run to me my love

can't live more alone

want to have your warmth

where do you live?

don't know your place

come with love in heart

fill your love in life

never let me cry.....!!!

.....you are world for me ...!!!

hey girl! look at me

I wanna live in your heart

and wanna live in you

just like life in each breath

don't let me go

I am full of love

and all my love is yours

let me come near you

and whisper in your ear

I wanna tell you

you're so beautiful

loveliest for me

in the universe

don't feel fear

I am human like you

I smile I cry

without heart

I will die

come to me

please love me

I'll love you till life

don't be stopped

just take few steps to me

hey girl! I wanna say

you're prettiest to me

and wanna tell

you are world for me ...!!!

.....Lonely again in life ....!!!

Life was onn

I was living

always alone in crowd

but,  hoped for for good time

all moments filled with dreams

some laugh and smiles

sometimes sadness and cry

it was good time

seen few dreams 

In daylight

one day I met

angel of my life

each breath was happy

all moments were smiled

It was you my love

the angel on earth

for me and my heart

I felt you like,

Gift of God to me

I sung and danced

became mad in your love

but, I cried

when you'd gone

missed you always

With smile and tears

started waiting

with hopes in heart

but, you didn't come

and engaged with someone

first I cried

it was like burning

and pain indescribable

but, blessed you

and saw you with smile

now again facing life

no smile no cries

stopped dreaming in daylight

no hopes for good time

you haven't turned

and didn't look at me

pushed me in fire

and closed the door

living with this flames

burning by each moment

Accepted gift of God

Walking alone in crowd

Lonely again in life ....!!!

......Burning in the fire ....!!

Where my eyes can see

Found only darkness

The night without light

No moon no sun

Only few stars there

Trying to spread life

Those words by heart

More than diamonds

But can't healed

Scars of my heart

Just relief of some moments

Then it will pain again

It was your smile

Which made me alive

But it has also gone

Can't understand

Can't reveal

What to do and how?

Lost all directions

Lost the way of life

Nobody is around

To whom I can ask

The way of living

And how to survive

You've left my hand

Pushed me in fire

Screaming your name

Burning in the fire ....!!!

..... make me alive forever .....!!!

There is no evening

No morning or noon time

It's just night

Only dark night

Can't buzz for a bit

And can't move

Feeling freezed

Thirsty stand alone

How to say in words?

Feeling so much pain

Trying to survive here

Each breath is burning

Heart still yells

Wants pure love

Rain on its dried land

Seeking you everywhere

But got nothing

Sorrow spreads darkness

Gloomy night ahead

All moments are empty

Nothing else in life

Just waiting to meet

Heart of my life

Golden moment ever

Which will create heaven

And .... make me alive forever....!!!

...... I need only you .....!!!

Lights are everywhere

But, it can't erase

Darkness of my life

Feeling the emptiness

The loneliness by heart

Nobody cares for me

I don't care for anybody

It was you

For whom I always care

The love came in heart

Only for you

I smiled for you

Each breath devoted to you

You are heart of life

Smile of my face

Finding you everywhere

My heart always yell

Don't go away

Don't leave me alone

Need your hug

Kisses on my lips

Give me your love

I need only you .....!!!

.......Loneliness kills me .....!!!

Want to see you

Each of the moments

The time I live

Want to spend life

Only with you

All the breaths

My eyes still finding

Everywhere I go

But couldn't see you

How far you are?

Distance between us 

Still don't know

Can't forget you

Miss you all the time

Want to meet you

Loving you like mad

Feeling broken from inside

Loneliness kills me .....!!!

..... want to meet you again ......!!!

It's again dark night

Feeling so lonely

Trying to be calmed

But my heart burns

Screams for your love

Why don't you understand? 

You have become my life

All my days and nights

You are in each moment

All my breaths're burning

Missing you deadly by heart

Come and see my love

What have I become? 

In true love with you

Never felt the pain

What I feel right now

Calling you for love

Screaming only for you

Devoted to you my life

Want to see your smile

Want to look in your eyes

Bring those golden days again

Want to meet you again ....!!!

.....if I stay .....!!!

All my moments

Filled with love

Missed you everywhere

Dreamed only about you

Breaths called you

Desperate to meet

Always felt like

You are with me

In my dreams

In my veins

With each drop

Blood streams in me

Never went away

And will never go

Need you all the time

With me in life

Don't allow tears

Between you and me

Make me smile

Give me hug

Kiss me like mad

Please stay with me

Till my last breath

Never make me lonely

I will give you love

From deep of heart

If I stay.....!!!

...... only trusting you......!!!

It's raining outside

Cold wind touches me

Feeling so romance

But lonely here

Remembering those days

The golden time

Spent with you

Night is so dark

Sadness surrounding me

Missing your nonstop talks

Silence got everywhere

All desires burned

All dreams are broken

Sing a song for me

Destroy the silence forever

All have teased me

Can't trust anyone

But you're that angel

Who will never cheat

Still adore you

Only trusting you....!!!

.....please come back .......!!!

..... my lovely darling ..... ish......!!! All the days and nights have become empty and burning without you. This is the reward of my true love given to you. I am going want to tell you something bitter. It is all about my current situation. I am going to remove the curtains from the people who are adorable for you.
      All my current situation of being unemployed and far from you is gifted by your second parents- the parsi couple. I had caught them around a year ago. I was very angry by that information,  but it was the truth and I had to accept it. They had made network of your friends and use them to depart us from each other.  You was enjoying my photos and footages. But they have destroyed my friend circle. They corrupted all the people who was around me. They corrupted my coach and ruined my studies of graphics softwares. When I changed the classes,  they done the same job. They contacted my neighbour- East indian -fish eater man - who have lot of contacts of the persons who know woodo, black magic and other super natural powers. He used it by my old servant who belongs to U.P. The result came as my mind has stopped working, I have lost money, wherever I started working people around me annoy me at the level to leave the job immediately.  It was the reason of leaving my places of earning and learning. It is accepted worldwide that woodo and other same things are existing.
       My enemies have won when you got engaged on 7th july.  They want me to commit suicide.  They want me to see always crying for you. I could answer them,  but you was at their side. I want to see you always winner. So I have made you winner. They have taught you to differentiate human by their achievements, wealth and looks.  They are the people who force to be converted into terrorist from the common men. Don't worry! I will not select that way. I am sad because you have made them winner against my true love. I could fight with men, but bent my knees against super natural powers.
       I know,  it's unacceptable for you. But, it is the truth I wanted to tell you by meeting you face to face. My life is ruined by them.  You are my everything and they have departed you from me forever.  I can die in love with you,  but can't live with you- this thing they have done with me. We could do the same business in Surat whatever you are going to start there. It is very easy setup.  But you have never tried to meet me and talk with me regarding it. Still it is not too late. Destroy all their work done and hold my hand. I will love madly as never before ...... are you laughing by reading this??? .... you can .... ish.... because you are still their side...... but I have only one heart which loves only you....kissing your forehead. .... I love you ..... please come back.....!!!

......please trust me......!!!

My beloved darling ..... ish.....I have loved only one lady and that is you .... but you have always kept distance from me.  Though we both live in same hometown we could not meet. I have always tried to talk with you by email,  but you haven't answered any of them. You have chosen man from the place which is always hated by mr. Why have you done that? Only you and God knoe. I still love you. If you will ever change your mind, I will accept you with smile.  I have devoted to you and destroyed my all dreams only for you. If you need pure love,  come to me. I will adote you. I still love you like worship to God. Please never doubt on my true and pure love only for you. have loved only you,  still loving you and will love you till last breath. ... please trust me.....!!!

..... hold my hand forever .....!!!

Living without you

Like burning in flames

Under rain of fire

With lot of pain

Each breath is empty

Heart bits still screaming

Don't know the place

Where you do live

Distance between us

Being increased more

Missing you my love

Finding you everywhere

Today I read

Answers of my words

Want to talk more

Wish to see you again

Need your love to live

Same like air for breath

Emptiness destroys me

Hold my hand forever.....!!!

.....if I could tell you .....!!!

All the moments 

I miss you

Can't describe 

If I could show you

You are in heart

In each of heart bits

Dying without you

If I could call you

All breaths are burning

Feeling pain never before

Loneliness kills me

If I could explain you

My world is you

Shelter in desert

So far from me

If I could get you

Loving you like mad

Looking you with hopes

Want to marry you

If I could tell you......!!!

.....you are my life.....!!!

Day has begun

Before open it

You was in my eyes

Finding your signs

On all of your ways

Thirsty to see you

Feeling like in desert

Need shelter of you

Each moment is empty

Fill them with your love

Each beat of heart

Missing you my love

You are like river

Streams full of love

Need each of drops

And want rain over you

Lot of love by heart

All I desire

Only connected with you

Make me smile forever

Give me warm hugs

Closed my eyes for world

Watching only you

Squeezing you in arms

Rubbing you by lips

Want to make you pleased

Want to see you smile

Come back in my life

I am only your
You are my life.....!!!

......only for you ......!!!

Became so lonely

Missing you a lot

Crazy for you

Want only love

Watching around me

But not found you

Felt to cry

But stopped my eyes

Loving you like mad

Can't stopped my heart

How to live without you? 

Don't know the way

Which was chosen by you

Feeling you so far

Burning by each breath

Want to be with you

But you left the way

Which is of our love

Still walking alone

Your thoughts in mind

Having lot of love

Only and ...... only for you......!!!