I am feeling very busy with my project proposal which I have to submit for my master degree. The new Semester was started when I was very sad with my Love's farewell. But now I am addicted with the pain of love. I have ever desired to have a wonderful life partner who understand me and my feelings. I will get her back in my life or not, that I have left on God and destiny. But I can say that she is the most awesome lady I have ever met. I have very bad habit of reading the people's body language and face expressions. Whenever she talked with anybody, I have ever seen that all her behavior was artificial or the result of personality development classes. I have tried to look into her from her eyes and felt that she has a beautiful heart and so many lusts in side it. I have found her same like me who always desire for something in our lives. I am the most optimistic person in my family. I never leave my hopes and never agree so easily with sudden results. I have ever trusted on God and destiny. I have always waited for good things in my life but never said good bye to those things. My motive of living is to achieve happiness and easiness to live the life. I was never money oriented man and in present also not that. I like to use costly materials and luxuries, but also feel nice with the situation whatever brings to me.
I last two days was really very busy for me and I have got good news during the busy period too. My family is feeling happy with all of the happenings, besides my mom. She is smiling but her eyes always looking a my face, which gives mix expressions of laughing and crying. So I try to escape my self from her eyes, but ever failed to do that. When I come from my terrace she always tells me to see the watch and it is not the time to go to bed. I know she is my mom and she has the right to tell me this. But what should I do if I can't sleep. I have left worship of God and meditation too. I have trust on God, but I am fighting with him that why he has done wrong things in my life and left me in big whirlwind.
I had seen her photo in which she looked very sad or in much tension. So I have decided to start worship of God and meditation for her. I will do that only for her happiness and wellness. I know Lord Krishna is my best friend and he will bless her and take my pray for her wellness. I have also decided to go Haridwar, the holiest place as per our religion for 'Ganga Snan' next month while Navratri (our festival). I have decided to spend my life with my work and worship of God and my Love.
My Love has become my God and each of the moment I am happy with it. My day begins with it and ends with it. Whenever anybody asks me about my love I tell them I have no idea as I am not an expert of the topic. Because I know they always laugh after my answer. The person who have never seen the mango, how will he understand the taste of Mangoes. To taste Mango you have to take it in your hand, you have to smell it , cut it and take it on your tongue. Then you can say that what is the taste of the Mango.
I have asked my heart that are you happy with the condition in which I am living, It has told me ........
I last two days was really very busy for me and I have got good news during the busy period too. My family is feeling happy with all of the happenings, besides my mom. She is smiling but her eyes always looking a my face, which gives mix expressions of laughing and crying. So I try to escape my self from her eyes, but ever failed to do that. When I come from my terrace she always tells me to see the watch and it is not the time to go to bed. I know she is my mom and she has the right to tell me this. But what should I do if I can't sleep. I have left worship of God and meditation too. I have trust on God, but I am fighting with him that why he has done wrong things in my life and left me in big whirlwind.
I had seen her photo in which she looked very sad or in much tension. So I have decided to start worship of God and meditation for her. I will do that only for her happiness and wellness. I know Lord Krishna is my best friend and he will bless her and take my pray for her wellness. I have also decided to go Haridwar, the holiest place as per our religion for 'Ganga Snan' next month while Navratri (our festival). I have decided to spend my life with my work and worship of God and my Love.
My Love has become my God and each of the moment I am happy with it. My day begins with it and ends with it. Whenever anybody asks me about my love I tell them I have no idea as I am not an expert of the topic. Because I know they always laugh after my answer. The person who have never seen the mango, how will he understand the taste of Mangoes. To taste Mango you have to take it in your hand, you have to smell it , cut it and take it on your tongue. Then you can say that what is the taste of the Mango.
I have asked my heart that are you happy with the condition in which I am living, It has told me ........
Just live.......... But .........Don't leave ........ to Love.....!!!
I love you ........forever .....and .......ever........My Empress....... My Love...........My "Madness".......!!!
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