.........the meals without salt........!!!

         When I was working in MNC's branch at my home town, I have seen my life so executive and well settled. I had never thought for my own business. When I left the company for some personal reasons, I realized that nobody can become so rich with any kind of job. I had thought to join my sister's profession - the architecture. I was already aware about the field and its needs. I was ready to enter and she needed support as she was alone. We had started work with small projects and one day we got a big opportunity from a reputed builder's firm. We started with the project and they had given more projects. We had reached at our top of capabilities of work. We came out from our library room and hired little gala for office. I had started my own consultancy in that office. We were getting nice response and work from our professional friends' circle. The happy days were going on I can say that.
         I had desired to do post graduation in computer field. So I went to IGNOU centre in our home town. I met the contact person and knew the details about Master of Computer Applications(MCA). When I was returning I felt the area of the study centre was trying to tell me something, but I could not realized the matter. I came back with prospectus and form. I got the admission for the course of MCA.
         I had never told to anybody that I was feeling very lonely from inside. I met new people and new classmates. I got some nice persons who became my friends. But still I was waiting for someone to whom I can say my best friend. The study with business and job is really very tough. We have to concentrate on both of them. I was also going from that way. I could not got the result what I had ever wanted from me. I could not fulfilled the requirements of my study and business too. I have become stable in my business but still I am not stable in my studies.
        The days were going on with quite happiness. I was enjoying my life with my family. But one day I had completed my recitation of rosary with holy chants of Lord krishna. Suddenly I asked the God that when would I meet my soulmate or life partner? I felt very strange as I had never thought about that. The next day I visited a new place and there I met a wonderful lady. When I met her first time I ignored my feelings and tried to concentrate on my work for which I was there.
       Days were going so nicely and the conversation between me and her started. So few words were there in our conversation. But whenever I saw her I felt different energy. And the day had come when my heart and my mind both had told me that there is no any person besides her in your life. I met my soul mate. But it was remaining to talk to her about it. I had decided to tell her my feelings for her on my birthday which was very near.
       All were going on very nicely. I liked the lady and her barbie doll style looks with naughty behavior. She was also taking interest in my activities of work and phoning people. Whenever I had tried to look in her eyes I found the same as my eyes finding for. I was ready for my birthday party.
       But it was the day when I had seen that her face was looking anxious and her eyes were showing some pain in them. I was thinking to ask her "what happened? Why are you so much anxious and about what?". but there were so many people there at the place. I can't forget those eyes which were looking at me while leaving the place on that day. I was come out from there but the whole day I could not concentrate on my work. The night was not quiet for me. I was thinking for her painful eyes and on her face whole night. From that it has become my destiny to think about her each of the moments. The next day she did not come to the place. I was missing her day by day and one day I asked one lady about her. She told me that she has gone to foreign country and may be never come again.
       I thought why met her and all the bad feelings came in my happy life. I was thinking about all the days spent with her. I was watching her in my closed eyes whenever I remember the God. Still  I can see her while closed eyes. It is quite difficult to see myself without her.
       The days are going very bad and nights are so painful. What to do and to whom I can say about that. And the other problem came in focus that I had written very bad words for her as my some bad companions had used for her. There is no any forgiveness for that mistake. I am really living like zombie. When the day has gone and when the night has completed without sleeping I can not realizing since that day.
      The life has become colorless ............ same like............Meals without .........Salt..........!!!