On this Saturday evening, my sister was complaining for the problem of irregular breath. I was quite anxious about her health as I was watching her desperating for the next breath. My whole family was became so sad and worried for her health. When we brought her to the nearest clinic, doctor told us about her health. After examined her, he had told us that her Hemoglobin level has gone down more than half as per our body requires. But it was Saturday night, so we were helpless and came back to home after her blood test. The ratio was 5.9 in her body as per the blood report. The next day, doctor had started the medicine and injections. But her health was sinking as I felt in night. So I had decided to shift her in any reputed hospital. The next day was Monday and we shifted her to Malavia Hospital, near my home. The physician had examined her and started new medicines as per quick treatment. After all sayings he told me that we have to bring 2 units of blood for her quick relief from breath problem. I was scared that what was happened to my elder sister suddenly? How has she reached to this critical stage of Anemia. But I didn't cry and seen up to the sky. I reached to the blood bank, but I got only one unit of blood. So I was very anxious about the second unit. I had asked to the lab technician for my blood, but she told me that my blood group is "A+" and my sister's blood is "O+", so I can't help my sister in this way. But my Youngest sister had collected some information about other blood bank which had provide us the second blood unit. After two days of visiting ICU of Malavia Hospital, my sister had taken the relief in her breathing. Still she is very weak by health as she can't walk and become quite tired. It was the 5th November, 2011 evening when she had started complaining.
from the second half of October to till this day, my family is facing big health related problems. I was the first victim, who had faced the sickness in health. After some 12 days when I was just being well, my youngest sister got the chickenpox. We could not celebrated our biggest festival of Diwali. After her, my eldest sister had become patient of severe Anemia. I am thanking to God that our parents has not got any kind of illness. I am very happy that we had fightback with all health problems and came back in routine life.
I had asked the doctor for the reason of Anemia. He had seen all the blood reports and told us that my sister had got the lack of Vitamin B12 in her body. This vitamin is found always less in vegetarian people.So she should be get it from injections, Medicines and dairy products. I was looking at doctor while saying this and thought, we are all vegetarians in our family so why my sister had faced that suffer ? if it is found always in vegetarians then we all should be face the problem of lack of vitamin B12. Then I remembered that I am regular in having dairy foods, especially ice cream. The doctor had given us guidance for her food and medicines. But, the Tuesday and Wednesday were very bad for us. Finally we brought her back to our home.
I was in trouble on Saturday evening when I had seen my sister's desperation for the next breath. But after lot of prays and given her some dry fruits. She got asleep and I moved to the computer as 5th November's midnight was coming. The 6th November was coming very silently and I was watching all my family members getting asleep cautiously.
I was so happy and thinking to send her lot of best wishes to her by my blog. But, I got the trouble and I could not send her my greetings. But thanks to internet by which I had made a small Birthday greetings post on my blog and published it. after 5 days when I had opened her profile I had not found anything on her FB wall. May be she has stopped writing on her own FB wall. May be she is quite busy with her study. Otherwise she has the habit to share all her photos of good occasions on her FB wall. She had set some more securities for me that I might not be watch her wall posts. What to say to her, it is her wall and it is her wish to whom what to show and what not to show. I am quite old style person who believe in long term relationships and all old thoughts. But I am happy with my own thoughts. I can't explain anybody what is my feelings when she tried to prove me so poor against her. I am her lover so I have to tolerate all deeds done by her which hurts me or make me happy. I am fun loving person and always found the way in any congested environment. I have found a new trick to make my self happy while missing her. That way is quite personal and not to be write here. Because if she will know it, may be she will completely close it.
I will meet her again in this life or not that I have left on destiny, I have full rights on my each breath and moment of my life. I can't stop myself to think about her and all few moments spend watching her live. Whenever I watch her, my mouth start smiling and give her greetings. I pray to God for my family and her daily. I can't say I hate her or trying to forget her, because I can't say lies. I have always believed in long term relationship. I don't like to flirt and short term friendship with ladies. I respect women and I am looking to them with different attitude. I don't like ladies who have low attitude for their lives. As per my thoughts every men must have faith in their ladies. If men will not allow their ladies to come forward then how will the ladies will walk with men in equal way. Men should come forward to support their ladies in her activities. If she is working in nights he should be help her to complete the task earlier. I can urge all men that please don't stop your women for their work and their business. If the woman will not happy in your home then how would you be happy. Would you like to eat that food in which your woman's tears are mixed? Please support your woman, she is working not only for herself but for you and your kids. I am writing this because of the event happened in hospital during my sister was admitted. There was an old lady died on the bed beside my sister's bed. As per hr relatives were talking she was suffering from mental stress given by surrounded people in her family. She had ever cried while relatives' bad talks. In that manner she got some infections and finally she died in ICU.
I have decided that I will never stop any lady in my family for doing their works. I will help them in their work. If you will see my whole life path, I have done that from my childhood. I have always given my chocolates and biscuits to my younger sisters. I have always supported them in their works. I will help my wife whole life till the end of my capacities and capabilities. But the condition is that if I will get marry. I had seen so many colorful dreams for my married life, but I think It will not be converted in reality. Because the lady with whom I am in love is not accepting my love. But I will spend my remaining life with her lovely memories and its happiness. I am happy in her happiness and her smiles. I can't say what I am feeling for her and what is she for me?
The next month is the month of exams for me. I have to give much time for it which is very important. But the reality is I can't concentrate on my studies. But I am reading whenever I get time. I try to remember my lectures and read lessons in past time.
I am trying to balance my self in all problems and bad conditions. But I need that shoulder on which I can feel relaxed, I need that lap in which I can asleep deeply with deep faith. I am asking to God that if I don't deserve it then why he showed me those dreams? I always telling him about her bad joking sense, ever used especially with me. I am not pessimistic person but sometimes I lost my patience in some situations. I have nice big home and good family members and if I had dreamed one kind lady as my life partner then what was the mistake I have done? I have never curse my lady "Madness" in any bad condition. She is quite innocent lady and busy with her works for making her dreams come true. Let her do her work and let me do my work that is the demand of the time.But I am fully sinking in her love. I am not telling anybody to save me but I am enjoying the activity of sinking myself in the sea of love.
She is so far from my hometown and me. She is so far from my heart and my feelings. She is thinking to develop her mind and I am thinking by heart. Mind will ever win against heart. If any person will follow his/her mind he/she will definitely win and if following to heart they will fallen down.
So many securities she will set but nothing can stop me ...... to love her. Because she is the only person t whom I can love by heart. She is my paradise, my earth, my wind, my shelter, my life, my breath, my time, my career, she is my everything. These are just few words which I have found for her. Otherwise I can't tell anybody that what is she for me. The truth is I want to see her happy and winner.
She is the most beautiful lady in the universe for me. I want to love her till my..... last breath silently ......very silently....!!!
from the second half of October to till this day, my family is facing big health related problems. I was the first victim, who had faced the sickness in health. After some 12 days when I was just being well, my youngest sister got the chickenpox. We could not celebrated our biggest festival of Diwali. After her, my eldest sister had become patient of severe Anemia. I am thanking to God that our parents has not got any kind of illness. I am very happy that we had fightback with all health problems and came back in routine life.
I had asked the doctor for the reason of Anemia. He had seen all the blood reports and told us that my sister had got the lack of Vitamin B12 in her body. This vitamin is found always less in vegetarian people.So she should be get it from injections, Medicines and dairy products. I was looking at doctor while saying this and thought, we are all vegetarians in our family so why my sister had faced that suffer ? if it is found always in vegetarians then we all should be face the problem of lack of vitamin B12. Then I remembered that I am regular in having dairy foods, especially ice cream. The doctor had given us guidance for her food and medicines. But, the Tuesday and Wednesday were very bad for us. Finally we brought her back to our home.
I was in trouble on Saturday evening when I had seen my sister's desperation for the next breath. But after lot of prays and given her some dry fruits. She got asleep and I moved to the computer as 5th November's midnight was coming. The 6th November was coming very silently and I was watching all my family members getting asleep cautiously.
I was so happy and thinking to send her lot of best wishes to her by my blog. But, I got the trouble and I could not send her my greetings. But thanks to internet by which I had made a small Birthday greetings post on my blog and published it. after 5 days when I had opened her profile I had not found anything on her FB wall. May be she has stopped writing on her own FB wall. May be she is quite busy with her study. Otherwise she has the habit to share all her photos of good occasions on her FB wall. She had set some more securities for me that I might not be watch her wall posts. What to say to her, it is her wall and it is her wish to whom what to show and what not to show. I am quite old style person who believe in long term relationships and all old thoughts. But I am happy with my own thoughts. I can't explain anybody what is my feelings when she tried to prove me so poor against her. I am her lover so I have to tolerate all deeds done by her which hurts me or make me happy. I am fun loving person and always found the way in any congested environment. I have found a new trick to make my self happy while missing her. That way is quite personal and not to be write here. Because if she will know it, may be she will completely close it.
I will meet her again in this life or not that I have left on destiny, I have full rights on my each breath and moment of my life. I can't stop myself to think about her and all few moments spend watching her live. Whenever I watch her, my mouth start smiling and give her greetings. I pray to God for my family and her daily. I can't say I hate her or trying to forget her, because I can't say lies. I have always believed in long term relationship. I don't like to flirt and short term friendship with ladies. I respect women and I am looking to them with different attitude. I don't like ladies who have low attitude for their lives. As per my thoughts every men must have faith in their ladies. If men will not allow their ladies to come forward then how will the ladies will walk with men in equal way. Men should come forward to support their ladies in her activities. If she is working in nights he should be help her to complete the task earlier. I can urge all men that please don't stop your women for their work and their business. If the woman will not happy in your home then how would you be happy. Would you like to eat that food in which your woman's tears are mixed? Please support your woman, she is working not only for herself but for you and your kids. I am writing this because of the event happened in hospital during my sister was admitted. There was an old lady died on the bed beside my sister's bed. As per hr relatives were talking she was suffering from mental stress given by surrounded people in her family. She had ever cried while relatives' bad talks. In that manner she got some infections and finally she died in ICU.
I have decided that I will never stop any lady in my family for doing their works. I will help them in their work. If you will see my whole life path, I have done that from my childhood. I have always given my chocolates and biscuits to my younger sisters. I have always supported them in their works. I will help my wife whole life till the end of my capacities and capabilities. But the condition is that if I will get marry. I had seen so many colorful dreams for my married life, but I think It will not be converted in reality. Because the lady with whom I am in love is not accepting my love. But I will spend my remaining life with her lovely memories and its happiness. I am happy in her happiness and her smiles. I can't say what I am feeling for her and what is she for me?
The next month is the month of exams for me. I have to give much time for it which is very important. But the reality is I can't concentrate on my studies. But I am reading whenever I get time. I try to remember my lectures and read lessons in past time.
I am trying to balance my self in all problems and bad conditions. But I need that shoulder on which I can feel relaxed, I need that lap in which I can asleep deeply with deep faith. I am asking to God that if I don't deserve it then why he showed me those dreams? I always telling him about her bad joking sense, ever used especially with me. I am not pessimistic person but sometimes I lost my patience in some situations. I have nice big home and good family members and if I had dreamed one kind lady as my life partner then what was the mistake I have done? I have never curse my lady "Madness" in any bad condition. She is quite innocent lady and busy with her works for making her dreams come true. Let her do her work and let me do my work that is the demand of the time.But I am fully sinking in her love. I am not telling anybody to save me but I am enjoying the activity of sinking myself in the sea of love.
She is so far from my hometown and me. She is so far from my heart and my feelings. She is thinking to develop her mind and I am thinking by heart. Mind will ever win against heart. If any person will follow his/her mind he/she will definitely win and if following to heart they will fallen down.
So many securities she will set but nothing can stop me ...... to love her. Because she is the only person t whom I can love by heart. She is my paradise, my earth, my wind, my shelter, my life, my breath, my time, my career, she is my everything. These are just few words which I have found for her. Otherwise I can't tell anybody that what is she for me. The truth is I want to see her happy and winner.
She is the most beautiful lady in the universe for me. I want to love her till my..... last breath silently ......very silently....!!!
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