..........HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR........!!!

  
     These are few hours we are all living in the year 2011. This year has given and taken too much from us. We have lost great artists in this year, like, Shammi kapoor, Dev Anand, Jagjit Singh etc. We have also lost big business tycoon and by whom I was ever inspired, he was Mr. Steve Jobs. This man had created the big umpire of Apple Technologies. We have got small but useful things which are called inspirations from these big legends. The life will not be stopped by any one's born or death. The world will remember them for few days, months or years. But they have left their marks on the desk of entire world. They were the persons who have created their own rules of working and living. They have given the message from their life that don't run blindly behind the formalities and rules created by the world, but learn them properly and follow those which you liked. Leave those rules and regulations which can not be followed blindly.
    We have only few years for living. We have to leave so much time for sleeping and roaming anonymously here to there. We have chosen very less time for working. Working for ourselves and our society. The nation is the big community and the big society. This society has its own culture and  formalities. There are so many religions in the world and each person on the earth is following one of them. I am following the Hinduism. My likes, nature, diet, culture, believes all are belongs to it. It is not necessary to follow any particular religion to get paradise after death. We need a paradise while living on the earth in our homes and our lives. I think we all love to pray to God for having good things in our life. The world is running behind the money and costly materials. Each of us wants to run faster and more faster to having all the wishes made by mind. We have become slaves of desires. We all need lot of money to fulfill our desires.
      Have you ever seen the person who likes to drink wines, but due to some reasons could not drink openly and in large sum of quantity. Suddenly he got the place where rules are not binding and nobody will stop for that. What will the person do? - answer is - person will open the bottle and take it directly to the mouth. After few days the person  will not like it too much as before. After few months the drawbacks of wines will start working on body. And finally drinking wines will become painful and the person will think about the previous place and part of life. Finally the person will find that wines are not good for humans and it should be taken in limited manner, just for enjoyment. But for understanding this, the person have to be passed through a long procedure and finally believe the truth said in society. What do I want to say fro this example? this is the question in your mind. My answer is - we all like meals of another person's dish. We have never tried to enjoy our meals served in our dishes. We like other countries' culture and society. What happened to our culture? why we all find other cultures better than our. In direct words I would like to say we all wants to live western countries' cultures. WWW is the most important for each man on the earth. Wealth, Wine and Women. For Women MMM is very important. Money, Men and Materials. Women doesn't like to be stopped at one place. They will ever wish to travel here to there. It's my own personnel experience with women (my family only). Just mark on thing while with any lady, she will show you some places by her arrow finger and request you to visit there. If you are at home she will ask you for outing to any place. So women like to travel more than men. They like to move forward more and more. They never like to see behind or see down. Achieve targets is their motto of life. They are our moms. They teaches us not to see behind or down. Whatever we have done was for good and whatever we will do, will also for good. Women teaches us to become progressive and achievers. They tell us that Women like fighters who like to fight with situations. Defeats and victories are there in God's hand. They like fighters who continue fight. They will never mind if you are winner or looser. No, they have never made that condition in which you must be winner. They want to see you in the battle field of the world and not in the comfort zone of home.
      I have seen the lady whose eyes are giving me this type of messages. I am fully inspired and recharged by her eyes. I am getting changes in myself automatically. Now a days I am being converted into the 12 years earlier man. I am going back to my thoughts which were in my mind while learning computer programming. My thoughts are different for the world and its rule. Behalf of getting others' ideas, I have to improve my ideas and thoughts. Why we all looking at the one side of things and can't see the darkness of shadows behind that? the answer is - we like to see glitter only and don't like to see the dark side of it. Sometimes we cross the lines and got big bad results, like, HIV from unknown glittering personality. When I was working with the organisation working for antiretroviral drugs, I have met so many patients who were from reputed families. They were crying while saying their stories. They were feeling guilty about their mistakes. Some mistakes are never forgivable. Even nature would never forgive for some mistakes. I scared after those interviews. I felt ever insecure with attractive women and always tried to keep distance from them. Because one mistake and you will loose your life. I was ever in tension, because it is quite difficult to balance your self while meeting any attractive lady alone. So, I had left the work and came back in programming field. I had decided to meet my friends in day time only. I was right for decision having only one partner for the life. If your partner is satisfying you, I don't think to have another one. flirting or dancing or making non-veg jokes are allowed, but crossing limits is not allowed. I had decided to force the lady for HIV test before marriage and me too. So I can present myself as a safe partner to her. I also wanted to feel secured and tension by doing that. But, now I have left the thought. Because ladies never like to be seen by doubtful eyes. They feel teased by saying this kind of words to them. So, whatever she will give me that will my destiny and the blessings of god, with this belief I had left that thought. It was my birthday in 2010 and I had told this to Jyoti. She became too much angry and became silent for some hours. From that day, I have decided not to tell this lines to any lady. But today I remembered the matter as I had seen a couple having sex in some silent area of Dumas road.
        My life is not so cheap that I can waste it behind painful disease. I have to work hard for me and my satisfaction. I know, I am missing my "Madness" too much. But, there are so many wound on my heart and mind which are also painful. I am just watching her for love. I need love and nothing more from her, because I have enough money and earnings by which I can satisfy me and my family too. But, my "Madness" is the lady who have so many high desires from life and why not she wish them? She deserve to see big dreams for her career and prosperous life. She is a marvelous lady who have unbelievable magnetism. She can attract anybody by her charm, and her personality can make anybody mesmerized. I have never seen this kind of person in my life. I had met her and lost my self in those few moments.I want to bring her in my life, because I can feel her each moment. Her smile have ever inspired me for living and working. She is my worship.
     From last few days I feel that she is very near to me. Maybe she is in Asia or in India. Maybe she wish to visit our hometown. But my heart is saying this and it might be true. If this is true, will she meet me? Will she try to listen my words? There is no answer come out from my heart. Because nobody had revealed woman's heart feelings, not even God. Lot of thoughts are running in my mind and my  mind is busy with the thoughts.
     But out of all bad thoughts and tears lets enjoy the last few time of the most memorable year for me, 2011. It is the year which has given message before come that be cautious you will be out of your comfort zone in 2011. It was happened by the break of my friendship with Jyoti. During the year I have lost my business and study concentration. But the happiest event of the year 2011 was my meeting with my Love.........My Empress.........My Madness......!!! I had taste the taste of Love, its pain and missing moments of my love. In the last month of the year I have seen that she has got paired with her classmate. She has hidden all her photos as per his talk and left the photos taken by herself.  So there is no chance to meet again with her. May God Bless her and her boyfriend too. With all the sorrows and tears I am waiting for the new year 2012. I know it is quite difficult to smile, but I have to smile and live. I don't know what will be happened in next year, but nothing will be happened worse than the year 2011.
     It was the most memorable moment for me when my Love has come in Blue saari and smiled while matching my eyes with her eyes. I have felt the divine feelings of Love which has mentioned in our holy books.  I felt the pious touch of love and become neat and clean. Maybe God and destiny wants to make any big work done by me or it was just to filter me from proud and rude nature. I have to pray for the lady to whom I have loved the most. But unfortunately I could make a little space in her beautiful heart. I want to see her happy and enjoying life. She is so intelligent that I can't advice her. I want to tell her.
     I have loved only one lady and that is you. I have ever wanted a nice life partner and I have found all my desired characteristics in you. But I have never forced you to choose me for the same. Please ! never believe in any kind of astrology and astrological predictions.Just believe your beloved one who have chosen by you. Make him happy and try to release his tension. Darling.....!!!.....You are the only angel came to me and I felt love for you. Still my love has not decreased for you, because I was aware from the result which has come between us. Please....!!!......don't tease that guy to whom you have chosen. Please call me for help, if you will ever need for it. I will ever try to help you if you will ever need in future. I know you are laughing, but sometimes some circumstances make us to go to that person to whom we have ever neglected. Please concentrate on your studies and own the Gold medal again. I will pray for you for the same. Eat well and sleep on time. Please drink wines in limited manner. Don't smoke if anybody will offer you, because it may lead you to drug addiction, as you are on the foreign land. I will love you forever, but don't mind it. I will never disturb you by making any comment on your web links. Be positive about me and never hate me. Because betrayal creates bad wishes and curse for the person. If you will hate me, I will get trouble in my life. I  have seen that God listens your prays, so pray for my sisters and their marriages. I don't want more from my life. Me, my parents, your memories and Lord Krishna's worship has become my life. Nothing more to tell you. Just virtually kissing your for head and telling you in advance.....DARLING.....!!!....I WISH YOU ..........HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR........!!!
      " May God will give you all the things which all you have ever desired. All the things whichever you will wish, come to you by anyhow. "
      " May God will give you good and happy future, full of happiness and laughs."
      " May God make your life full of Love and rich materials."
      "May God will give you a nice, lovely and naughty kids who will stretch your hair and call you 'Momma'...."
      "May God bless you with golden moments in your life."
      " May God brings you out of the reach of evil eyes and bad persons."
      " May God make you very popular and famous by any of your activities."
      " The magnet attract iron, but may God give you that power which attract wealth to you."
      " Love was ever useless for you, so may God give that heart which can have this divine feelings for somebody."

            So I will meet you in 2012........after few hours........!!!

..again wishing you........HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR........!!!

       Please ......!!!......open the door............2012 ........is knocking.......!!!