.....its very cold winter.......!!!

      

       Thoughts came in my mind while watching the died fish and some were going to die. It was the moment which I had compared me with the fish were trying to survive out of water. I was comparing myself with the dying fish and not with any other thing, why? I have no answer for the questions. I had seen and few lines came in my mind and wrote here. Love is showing me new destinations and levels now a days. The special lady has become very special for me, I don't know what will happened next. Let me think for her positively and wait for her come back. Now a days, I am fighting with my situation of facing trouble at work. Some lack of technical support is making me delay to complete the project. But I am doing my best to give more powerful result to my clients. I am feeling overburden now, but crave of doing good is making me more motivated. My love is always with me and her one smile makes me more energetic.
      She had hide herself behind FB's security, but she has not closed the doors for me. I am waiting for the door which will be opened by her one day. Because she is not heartless lady and not a statue made by stone. She is woman who have a big heart in which she has given spaces to more than thousand friends. Maybe I am at a special place in her life. I am feeling strange, still she feels I am stranger. I have told all my life events to her and shown my photos too. Let her think what to do? let me wait for her. I don't want to guess any result, but always pray for her good future. I know age gap between me and her is slight big, but I am a strong muscular man and yogi. I am enjoying her virtual existence in my life. I am enjoying her memories and talks which were very short but nice. She has taken international behavior's training by personality development CDs or classes as per my guess. I was thinking about my desi behavior with local people and laughed. I am food loving person and as per her chat with friends she is too. But I am pure vegetarian and she is pure non-vegetarian. What to do? I can't enter in that world in which she is living, but she can live in both world. Question is that, Why will she would like to enter in my world? only one word as an answer -LOVE. If she will accept my love, she will like my world in which I am enjoying the life. I have seen most big cities of India and in next few years, planning to visit all the big cities of the world. Will she with me or not? I don't know.But I can say, it will be paradise on earth if she will with me.
     We are all living in moments, in which we have to do our work and try to be happy while doing our deeds. Why do we become sad? why do we feel sorrow? We have to enjoy the life and its moments. But, these are only words while missing your love. I am watching all the things which were always attracting me, but now those things can't attract me more, now a days. Hot and gorgeous ladies were my taste and each day I was busy by watching them. Women's beauty and curves have ever made me crazy to say erotique quotes regarding their hot body structures. I have made so many erotique stories and told to my friends while enjoying fake chats regarding  fantasy of women. Still I can make so many stories regarding this topic.But, I was liar in that direction. The reality is, I have ever scared by infections of HIV while proposing to ladies. I have no faith in ladies who are quite flirty and always found with men. But, now a days my thinking  has become changed about ladies. Ladies are more awakened than men and they doesn't allow any unknown person so easily in their life. I salute women for their this attitude. Love is important, but  be more careful about relationship that is their untold slogan of life.
       My life has become changed after felt the special feelings called love. I am in love with the lady who is totally different than my decided criteria of my dream girl. I have created the picture of the lady who would look hot and sexy, but I was wrong. How many days the hot charm can attract any man? the answer is not so long time. I am in love with the lady who looks Lovely rather than hot or sexy. God has taught me new lesson of beauty and loveliness by brought her in my life. When I met her I knew that ladies can be look lovely rather than hot or attractive or sexy. Ladies who look lovely will never become old as love will never become old or 
disliked. I have found her look lovely and not hot. I feel lot of love while watching her. My heart starts automatically praying for her and her wellness. I am always worry about her health as she is in very cold environment. I want to tell her,
      Darling.........!!!......always wear socks in your feet. If possible try to avoid go out in nights. Have a warm soup, tea, coffee many times in the daytime. Don't talk with friends till late night, sleep well in nights. I know your talks are endless, but its a winter time and you are in very cold place. I request you to have a small scale of alcoholic drink if the coolness will increase. But, drink it in limit as it is harmful to your body. You have to buy chyawanprash from super stores or mall, if it is available. If it is not available then ask to your daddy for that. You are not connected with me, otherwise I could send it to you by parcel. Eat dry fruits, especially dates with milk, it will increase your stamina to tolerate cold environment. Cover yourself with woolen clothes while going to college. Enjoy the snowfall and coolest winter. I think you are familiar with this kind of environment as you have visited Switzerland and Russia. But it was your tour life and this is your living environment. I can advice you only as I can't send you anything from here. You have bound me by shutting the doors. But, you know me, I am fully optimistic about our future. Please don't eat onions in night because it will give you rash in your throat. If you will get Ginger, please chop it in small peaces and chew it while eating lunch and dinner. Darling.....!!! carry on your comments on your own wall, so I can easily know your updates.
I am very well here and winter is not so cold like yours. I have changed my routine and started exercise and walking in heavy form. I pray daily for your wellness, but your precautions are necessary for your health. Nobody is watching you, it is depending on you what to do? Be a good and calm lady and think what is good and what is bad? Life has given you the chance to become independent about taking decisions of life. Because you are your own guardian and you  are your own child. I know I am giving you lecture on being healthy, but I think you need some guidance regarding health. I know you will laugh as your daddy is doctor. I can show you some desi remedies to decrease the impact of cold on your body.
       My Love.....My Empress.......My Madness........you have become the most important person for me. You are my motivator and inspiration. I can pray for you, but can't reach to you as you are in US security. I am watching you daily and talking with your photos. I am not psycho and not real mad. I am mad in your love, but quite awakened from the real world. The cruel world, always measures human by their money and materials. We are both know the importance of health and time. In future, maybe we will own each other, but at this time we are so far physically from each other. I am worry about you, please take care. If not for your self then take care your self for me. I love you..... darling.....!!! feel my warm hug and kiss on your forehead. Listen I am whispering in your ears..." I love you"...... again please ....take care......as .....its very cold winter.......!!!