I am sorry for those words written in last few posts. Forgive me again for those painful words. I have to be punished by you for hurt you. I will try to not do that again. That is the reason you have become again silent. I can't believe that the unstoppable mouth holder lady is not saying anything to me. I can't get your messages, maybe all are only for your circle. I am very special for you, so I will listened your words after meeting me. You are the one with whom I am sharing my all personal matters. I feel you, when I remember you. I feel your love, when I am lonely and remember you. I am feeling really lonely whenever you become silent. I had written some strong words which must not be written here. I understand your feelings now, because I am feeling punished. How big stupid and idiot I am.....!!! who can't understood your silence. But, how can anybody judge the silence? It was the biggest moment for me when I had asked my mom about you while showing your photo to her. I was so excited and you made the silence. I had not got your response, so I became angry and written that post. I am sorry for that and try to stop writing while angry. I had decided to cancel the Saputara tour, but when I reached to the tour arranger I knew that around 12 person has already cancelled there names from list. So, I had not cancelled my name and gone for tour. But I was feeling myself in another world while roaming that place. It is nice place, but even the Rohtang could not given me pleasure how could the Saputara gives me? I thought, I have to tell you all my feelings. But, You feel teased and angry while reading that post. Leave those matters and let me talk on another topic.
Today is the most beautiful day which is called Women's day- your day. I have ever respected ladies to whom I have ever met. This is the reason that I am always honored by ladies. After my Mom, you the most important person in my life. You have made me different from the previous person. I was not this before I met you. I was not living, but only passing time on this earth. After meet you, I realized that what is life? and what is living? Your small pins have awakened me from the deep asleep. First time in life, I felt need of any person and felt darkness without her. I could not understood those feelings for so many days. Still, I can't sleep well in nights. I don't know how it was all happened and how I felt need of you in my life.
You will believe or not, but I can say that if I had told my feelings to you, I was definitely hit by you. But destiny was wanting the different result from us. I am soil and you are water. We both have different format. But, if we will be mixed, it could be give the result of different shapes. like, pot, which was the shape come from soil and the most useful for cool drinking water. We are at the middle and also watching the play of our destinies. We have to see the coming events of our lives which will show us the new glorious days. So many times I have made you angry. But, you have ignored those words and listened me. Actually, my intentions were different then I had written the words. You are the first lady to whom I have written more than hundred letters to you here. I have never written a word for any lady in my life, but you have made to write.
I need your love, darling! and also faith in me. What will I feel by physical relation with you? I don't know and also don't want to imagine it. Because your return journey is still mystery. I will not ask you , when will you come back? because I am not selfish and don't want to disturb your travelings. You have the most beautiful heart and lot of love in it. You have ever made faces smile which were crying before meet you. I feel you in my blood streaming in my veins. I have love in my heart only for you and it was never before for anyone. I need your love for living the life with happiness. I want to forget this world and feel you as my world. I had ask you for the promises of this life. And you have shown me thumb for that. It was the double meaning gesture. One means that I am agree to give you the promises, so thumbs up. Second meaning that you are saying me No. What should I read that, as yes or no?
Woman is like a river when she starts her life she is like small beautiful stream. She plays with her siblings and friends like stream passing upon the stones. She makes her father's home delighted by her singing and playing. She makes her parents buy lot of things for her own "Shringar" and lot of new things like colorful dresses and glittering ornaments. She gives pleasure to her parents by her lovely talks and makes them smile. It is same like river makes the surrounding area green full of flowers. When she grown up and enters in her youth, she got the lovely beauty, same like river's waterfall creates the awesome beauty. She starts dreaming about her marriage and her charming prince. Same like river's streaming to the plain from mountains. She become calm and quiet for choosing her life partner- husband. same like river streams very quietly to the sea. Finally, she got married and starts her new life at new home with her husband and give birth to her children. Same like river gives water to the farms and feeds the world like mother. River melts in sea and lost its existence same like girl married to her husband and forget the home where she was born. Rivers and woman are different at one stage where river meet to the ocean and lost her existence in it. But, woman gets her real position after married to her husband. She gets herself as mother and wife. Women are very important in men's life, because without women, men can not be completed. Wife makes her husband a complete man. Man can feel himself as Man after meet his woman. In our Hindu mythology woman worships as Goddess and rivers are called Mother. As a wife, woman can make her husband smile when he feels tired and weak. She gives him the power to face new challenges of life. Woman entertains her husband when he feels tension and loss. Woman has the power to create new world. God has given her the ability to give birth to the new life. Women are delicate for touch, but having lot of stamina to tolerate the pain. As a man I can say that women have more stamina than men to tolerate the pain. Women have the power to hold the patience for waiting of correct time. Woman are sensitive, emotional and loving by nature. But, sometimes they can become a strong personality with full of power and light. Women like to eat new dishes of food and decorate homes. Women teach the way of living the life in beautiful ways. If the men have the power of muscles, women have the power of their charming beauty. The union of men and women gives the birth of new generation and the world get new existence by their meeting. Women paint the new colors to the men's life and make his world more colorful. In short, Men can't be completed without women.
I can say this as per experience with you...darling.....!!! I was living the meaningless and colorless life. After met you, I feel the colors in my life, I like to listen music which was ever ignored by me. I am found in different restaurant and eating new dishes. I feel the divine feeling called love for you.
My Love........My empress.......My soul.........My "Madness"......... today is the "Women's Day" and I wish you Happy Women's Day......by heart....... I love you forever and feel you in my arms ......... As per people around you......you are like Mercedes car in show room and I am being happy by watching you....... but the truth is you are a lady ....... who was my neighbor while working in one office and you was very near to me ........I have loved only one woman ...... and that is you.......believe me or make doubts on me.......but I love you from bottom of my heart. ......Love is not for all in this world....... people can't understand the divine feelings of love....... because to love somebody ......you have to become divine and clean by heart.......and I can say that ......you are the most divine lady on the earth for me.......... I can say that........ you are the pious lady like the ........river of Ganga........ your beauty is as innocent as the smiling blossoms....... I would like to say ......... you are the one who have won me from the world and tied me with the smooth and lovely chains of love........ from which I don't wish to be free for the lifetime.......tie me with you......... tie me with your smiles.....make me more energized by your lovely and innocent smiles.........be colorful and paint my world ........ with new colors of joy...... Give me love and warmth for living this life........I had prayed to God ....... for divine woman ..........an Angel...... and that is you........ I can say that ....for me.........you are...... a divine woman......!!!
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