.........till my last breath.........!!!

         

        Yesterday was bad day for our family. Our pet cat was died early in the morning. It was so cute and ever came in my lap while writing here. It was always like a little kid of our home. My mom's favourite and always cured by her. But, life is always streaming. It is always streaming with its force, in which we are all traveling. We are watching the days and nights. Life is so boring while living without moving. We are all living in our style. I am living in pure desi, Surti style and you are living in American style. I was living like you before 12 years ago. My thoughts are the same, but I have stopped living in that style. Because people had started to feel that I am light weighted man. So, I had learned the desi style and started to copy pure desi persons. I had wished to be settled in US or any other country rather than India. But, I had got nice jobs and now the consultancy business, which has made me millionaire. I have started the 3D modelling business while developing my consultancy. I am little baby  in the world of 3D animation, but I have taken the risk and successfully completed one project. Second is running. I am sorry, I have still not upload the final images of my last project. That blurred and poor quality images were just for knowing your  and others' opinions about my work. But, I was happy with your reaction and also of CT. But, don't worry I have finalized the project with my friend who have the server for final rendering. This project will be also finished with him. I need more courage to have mega project from Mumbai and other cities. My friends have started to find work for me and I have to visit different cities for meeting clients. But, that time seems so far from now. I have to develop more in our city. I hope before you come back to our city, I will be reached at that stage. But, I have to work hard to develop 3D business. Currenly I am having the consultancy of government works.like Airport NOC for high rise buildings, interior decoration etc. I am entering now in the world of 3D and movie editing. So the doubt of my business is may be solved today. I am earning nicely from the consultancy business, but I will get a giant jump when fully land in the world of 3D. I have started learning 3D with the dream of making 3D animation TV serial and finally movie. After joining the course I met you and lost the concentration on the learning. But after this project I have become confident for my goals of working. I am happy by having your love in my life. I am so lucky that I have got my love. I know you loves me more than me. But, having the pain of the distance between us. The physical distance is very big as you are in US and I am in India.
         My sister was telling me that I have got changes in my face. I don't know which kind of changes this is? I will upload my recent photo, tell me what is changed. I was thinking to cut my hair like you, but thought let me cut it after few days. Because I have just colored my hair and the colors are costly. You had the reason for hair cut, but I am happy with your love. So, next Sunday I will visit the salon. I hope you are not more teased by friends for this hair cut. Please control your temper and be calm for this few days of your studies. Try to get medal again. I will pray for your success. Tell me one thing, do you believe in God or not? If yes, please pray for my sisters' marriages to God, whenever you pray.
         I am here without you like eyes without lights. You are the light of my eyes and the world of colors. I am finding the way to reach you, but can't find anything as my network is not so powerful like you. People around me had ever tried to make me miserable by saying negative words about you and your activities. May be that was the reason I got separation from that place. But, you was ever in my heart and become more closed from that day to the latest time. My love for you is increased in my heart rather than finished by time. I have never thought that I would be fallen in love with any lady like this. I was in search of a nice lady for marriage and stopped searching after taken the admission in MCA. I am very optimistic by nature and always positive till the last second. I have lot of dreams about our future life.
         I am losing my patience now and being more enthusiastic to have you in my arms. I am feeling you in my heart. You have taken the whole charge of my world. Whatever you are saying I am following you. I need you and your love rather than this world. I have not seen the world, but seen once by your eyes. now, that is also stopped by you. Darling......!!!...... I would like to see all the places with you, which you have visited in you life. That is the reason, I want to have the giant  jump in my earnings. Any place must not be left by us. Each place must have our story and each night should be narrate our feelings for each other. You are my most lovely lady and having a lot of love in your heart only for me. You have created a heaven in my life. I urge you, please never think for any other man besides me in your life. Let me give you the peace and satisfaction of the life. I am muscular by health, so there is no doubt about the successful married life.  I will ever follow your words and ever try to make you happy by giving you whatever you want from me besides any heart breaking thing.
        I can see you while closing my eyes. I can feel you whenever listened my heart beats. I can dream you in my arms and kissing you. Each moment without you is going very badly. You can drink as nobody will stop you, but I can't drink because I have ever stopped by me. I need one thing, if possible please complete it after coming back to India. Whenever you call me for our meeting, please come in that Blue saari and try to do that make up. During the period of this few months, your hair will also grown up same as before. Please, leave this western lady at that place where you are living. I am talking about bad habits and not about dressing of talking habits. I will try to decorate your life by new colors. I will try to give you the warmth of love. I don't think that any lady wants more than loving husband and nice kids in her home. A small and happy family is the desire of every woman. I think you will also happy with that calm and peaceful life. I will not force you for work, because I don't dream for your money or any other financial lusts from you. I have never tried to find your parents and your home in our home town. Because it will destroy the excitement of imagine your parents and your home and especially the room where you have spent your student life.
        My Love ..........My Empress..........My "Madness"........ Let me give you the world's tightest hugs to you for life time. Let me kiss those eyes which have ever seen me with calm. Let me give you the heaven of love. Let me love you by heart till the end of the life. Let me see you till my eyes will be closed forever.
        I have love more than seven seas in my heart for you. But, still I am at your door and not in you. When will the time come? when will I be in? when will I  meet you again? when will I make rain of love on you?
         Let the time give the answer. Let the destiny decide the time. .........let the time come.......let the day come.......let the blossoms grown up..........let me wait for you........Please give me the answer...... if you can answer my questions...... Tell me how much ......you loves me....? and when you will come again........I will wait for your answer......I will wait .........till my last breath.........!!!