Sorrie ....darling......!!! ........ I had written in last post that, I will not try to make any conversation here. But, it was necessary for me to clear all your doubts and annoying matters from your heart and mind. I am sorrie, from start to today, may be you have marked that I have admired you and whenever you was in good I have written here very bad sarcasms here. I have told you so many worst thing here about your friends and your connections with them. Today, I want to raise the curtains from the truth for which I have made you too much angry and created hatred for me. I am following you from more than one year in hope of a direct talk with you. But, I could not get chance to talk with you. I had only one media to explain you about good and bad for the general people. Because I knew that you are very good and calm lady by heart, but lil spoilt lady by tongue and behavior online. So, I have ever tried to explain you what is good and bad for the normal people. One day you will get a life partner who will be from general people who will never want to have nagging lady with him. I had also seen that you have ever shared all your personal matters with your friends and circle. I accept that your friends are very good and very supportive with you, but everybody needs some matters under curtains. So, I had cursed all your friends and circle too. I am sorrie..... people who have read some bad for you. But it was necessary for me to try to bring out your calmness from your inner side in your behavior and words. Everyday, your man can't admire you, but sometimes you have to listen some hard words from him. I wanted to teach you this lesson by my words written here. Your friends are good and quite supportive in all matters, even they have done those work which was not good. I admire your friendship and circle. Even I am feeling jealous from you for that. If I got friends like yours, I could win over my mind and heart too. But, everybody has no skill to maintain friendship in good way. I am one of them. But I was not like this as current person, I have faced cheating by each the person who had shaken hand with me.
Today, I am telling you about me. I am not a man who talk bad with people, even I don't like to speak loudly with anybody. I also don't like to speak craps, but I was trying to show you that you are doing this online. It was my try to correct your behavior and your language online. But, got failure to correct you and got your hatred more than two times. Even you feel I am any bad person who follow you with any of bad intention, but it is not true. The truth is, I love you by deep of my heart and wanted to make you a gentle and calm lady. I have spoilt my image in your eyes, but ever tried to tell your bad points which must be correct in your self. Today I confess that I have followed you just to see that you are ok or not.
I know, today this words are meaningless for you, but tomorrow when you will face the real world and face the men who will come in your direct talks. That time you will face the problem of control your self. I had made you too much angry by my words, by that I had tried to teach you the lesson of control of your self while too much angry. I know we have a big gap of age difference, so I had kidding with you and the people around me. It is not my nature to joking with people, because I have never made jokes with friends. I had shown so many ladies' connections and also shown some profiles with photos here to you. By that I had tried to show you, if your man is talking with any lady as he knows that you are watching that means he needs your attention. In reality, I don't have any connections with any lady. If something is matched with my choice, it may be just co-incident and not having connection with me. I will be connected with that lady who will try to know me and will take interest in all my work and routine life. I had found that lady in you, but unfortunately I have also found that you was interested in listening only those things which were admiring you. I have lot of bad factors in myself and also should change my behavior with people. You will ever find me laughing and smiling whole day, there is a reason behind that. In past I have lost my friends and was become alone. There was nobody with whom I can smile or laugh, so anybody who met me I have tried to smile and laugh with that person.
You was desperate to see my skills of softwares, because you had doubts on my abilities. I had tried to show my skills by two live projects photos on FB, but you was not satisfied with them. I will show all in next month, because I am busy with social work, office projects and exams of MCA.
One thing was in my mind that if I will loss my eyes or hands in any kind of accident, what will you do as wife when I might be become useless or unproductive??? Because all skills are needy of eyes and hands, without that you can't show your creativity. Would you live me at that time, when I may be lost something by any accident??? Your hunger of having skills and skillful people have ever made me doubt on your love. That was the reason, I have still never tried to show you any kind of my skill. But, after this exam session, I will work hard on all those softwares which are top in the industries. But, I need time to reach at that point.
I have told you all the truth, whatever was behind all those bitter words. I am really sorrie ........ but I had no option for teaching you a good lession. I am saying sorrie to you and all of your friends to whom I have told so many bad words here. Tell them, they are architects and always learned to create new things and give it as a gift to the society and country. They may have bad habits of living, but they are creators and good thinkers. I have enjoyed your love and friendship here, by good and bad words for me. Really, I will never forget all your love for me. But, from today I will never try to correct your bad habits because it will make me your enemy forever. I don't want to let you go with anger and hatred for me in your heart. If possible, forgive me for all those things and always keep the good words written here for you by me. Whatever was between us, I felt true love in that relation. I felt your love in my heart. That was the reason, I believed you as my wife. But, relationship is depend on both of our hearts. If we have to create a relationship, we need to understand each other and our likes-dislikes too. I had stand last night near omlet stall and not got headache too.
If you really want to know, I must say I have ever loved you and only you. But, I think you need more time to think about that. I am giving you the time for think about our relationship. From tomorrow, you will find only entertaining words here. So, whenever you will feel alone or bored, come here I will entertain you by good things. I promise you, I will never make you sad or angry here...never!!!
Believe me or not, that is depend on you. But whatever I had done here, all was in the way to correct your mistakes and behavior. It was for your possessive nature about your man. It was all for your doubting on your man. Don't do that, it will spoil your head, days and nights too. Think positive about your man and try to understand his feelings for you. If he loves you, don't insult his love by making doubts on him. If he is saying all lies, try to understand the reason behind that. If he is hiding something, try to understand he don't want to make you cry. If he is making you cry today, try to understand the sweetness behind the bitter words. All men are not same, if I am giving you too much honor and calling you my Empress, it is not necessary for other man who will behave the same with you. If I have made you cry and upset here, I have also made you happiest in the world too.
So, don't hate me and never curse me. I have tried to make you correct in all your things which were not suited with your lovely personality. The truth is ....... I love you and it was all my love behind all the sarcasm and bitter words. If you and your friends can take it as a truth, it will all my pleasure. If you are not taking it as truth, the time will make you understand my words....... I am in love with you and I had ever tried to do a lover's duty. Have I got a success in my efforts or not??? I don't know, but can be see in your future online talks. May be I will never see your words again...... But my bitter words and behavior was only for your good future. I love you and will love you till end of my life.... I don't need to say you ......... I can't live without you......because you know that I will really cant live without you..... You know me better......... I know you better........believe me or not but.........this was the reason behind that...... !!!
Today, I am telling you about me. I am not a man who talk bad with people, even I don't like to speak loudly with anybody. I also don't like to speak craps, but I was trying to show you that you are doing this online. It was my try to correct your behavior and your language online. But, got failure to correct you and got your hatred more than two times. Even you feel I am any bad person who follow you with any of bad intention, but it is not true. The truth is, I love you by deep of my heart and wanted to make you a gentle and calm lady. I have spoilt my image in your eyes, but ever tried to tell your bad points which must be correct in your self. Today I confess that I have followed you just to see that you are ok or not.
I know, today this words are meaningless for you, but tomorrow when you will face the real world and face the men who will come in your direct talks. That time you will face the problem of control your self. I had made you too much angry by my words, by that I had tried to teach you the lesson of control of your self while too much angry. I know we have a big gap of age difference, so I had kidding with you and the people around me. It is not my nature to joking with people, because I have never made jokes with friends. I had shown so many ladies' connections and also shown some profiles with photos here to you. By that I had tried to show you, if your man is talking with any lady as he knows that you are watching that means he needs your attention. In reality, I don't have any connections with any lady. If something is matched with my choice, it may be just co-incident and not having connection with me. I will be connected with that lady who will try to know me and will take interest in all my work and routine life. I had found that lady in you, but unfortunately I have also found that you was interested in listening only those things which were admiring you. I have lot of bad factors in myself and also should change my behavior with people. You will ever find me laughing and smiling whole day, there is a reason behind that. In past I have lost my friends and was become alone. There was nobody with whom I can smile or laugh, so anybody who met me I have tried to smile and laugh with that person.
You was desperate to see my skills of softwares, because you had doubts on my abilities. I had tried to show my skills by two live projects photos on FB, but you was not satisfied with them. I will show all in next month, because I am busy with social work, office projects and exams of MCA.
One thing was in my mind that if I will loss my eyes or hands in any kind of accident, what will you do as wife when I might be become useless or unproductive??? Because all skills are needy of eyes and hands, without that you can't show your creativity. Would you live me at that time, when I may be lost something by any accident??? Your hunger of having skills and skillful people have ever made me doubt on your love. That was the reason, I have still never tried to show you any kind of my skill. But, after this exam session, I will work hard on all those softwares which are top in the industries. But, I need time to reach at that point.
I have told you all the truth, whatever was behind all those bitter words. I am really sorrie ........ but I had no option for teaching you a good lession. I am saying sorrie to you and all of your friends to whom I have told so many bad words here. Tell them, they are architects and always learned to create new things and give it as a gift to the society and country. They may have bad habits of living, but they are creators and good thinkers. I have enjoyed your love and friendship here, by good and bad words for me. Really, I will never forget all your love for me. But, from today I will never try to correct your bad habits because it will make me your enemy forever. I don't want to let you go with anger and hatred for me in your heart. If possible, forgive me for all those things and always keep the good words written here for you by me. Whatever was between us, I felt true love in that relation. I felt your love in my heart. That was the reason, I believed you as my wife. But, relationship is depend on both of our hearts. If we have to create a relationship, we need to understand each other and our likes-dislikes too. I had stand last night near omlet stall and not got headache too.
If you really want to know, I must say I have ever loved you and only you. But, I think you need more time to think about that. I am giving you the time for think about our relationship. From tomorrow, you will find only entertaining words here. So, whenever you will feel alone or bored, come here I will entertain you by good things. I promise you, I will never make you sad or angry here...never!!!
Believe me or not, that is depend on you. But whatever I had done here, all was in the way to correct your mistakes and behavior. It was for your possessive nature about your man. It was all for your doubting on your man. Don't do that, it will spoil your head, days and nights too. Think positive about your man and try to understand his feelings for you. If he loves you, don't insult his love by making doubts on him. If he is saying all lies, try to understand the reason behind that. If he is hiding something, try to understand he don't want to make you cry. If he is making you cry today, try to understand the sweetness behind the bitter words. All men are not same, if I am giving you too much honor and calling you my Empress, it is not necessary for other man who will behave the same with you. If I have made you cry and upset here, I have also made you happiest in the world too.
So, don't hate me and never curse me. I have tried to make you correct in all your things which were not suited with your lovely personality. The truth is ....... I love you and it was all my love behind all the sarcasm and bitter words. If you and your friends can take it as a truth, it will all my pleasure. If you are not taking it as truth, the time will make you understand my words....... I am in love with you and I had ever tried to do a lover's duty. Have I got a success in my efforts or not??? I don't know, but can be see in your future online talks. May be I will never see your words again...... But my bitter words and behavior was only for your good future. I love you and will love you till end of my life.... I don't need to say you ......... I can't live without you......because you know that I will really cant live without you..... You know me better......... I know you better........believe me or not but.........this was the reason behind that...... !!!
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