.......heaven of love.....!!!

   

       I had seen your photos. After more than two hours, I got tears in my eyes and so many blessings were come out from my heart. What did we had when born on this earth and what will we take with us after death. Only happy moments will be ever memorised whenever feel lonely or sad. All those moments spent with you are still in my eyes. Your eyes, smiles, naughty acts, whispers, singing songs, your flying hair.....all is there at their place in my life. It was the most important and beautiful part of my life when you was here with me. I know, we have talk in very least words, but those words are more than 24 carat gold for me. I desperate for this type of conversation with you in my life again. Those people who are sharing words with you, are so lucky. I don't know why? but some thing is killing me from inside. Is it loneliness? no it is not that. It is something else, which is unidentified and unknown feelings which is killing me from inside. May be something is going to happened in my life which will change my life forever. But, what is going to happened? I don't know. I have not share this with anybody, because now a days I show my self very happy to all the people around me. But, reality is different. I feel scared by each moment comes in my life. Why am I scared? I couldn't reveal the reason. It is my sixth sense which have ever tried to make me cautious about the coming life changing event.
      Are you planning to come back? If it is being think by you, it will be my pleasure to see you again if you will feel my emptiness of life. I don't which way I am following? but all my ways are leading me to you. I know, you don't like my words which described my personal information in public. But, you have not left any kind of way to talk with you. Why ..........ish......? Am I still stranger to you? Will you ever talk with me before my death? Please say something..... You are so loving lady and also loves me. But, why am I still out of your world? If you can't enter me in your world then accept my invitation to enter in my world. You will realise my true love in your heart. May be you will think, why have you not realised this most important thing so earlier?
        Some people told me time will erase all your memories from my heart. But, it is being quite opposite. All your memories was become more and more sharp in my mind. Behalf of forget you, I have got my love more strong in my heart for you. I don't care, what will the world will tell me? Because I have no any place in my heart for this world. Because you are every where in my life and in me. You are always in my eyes like light. I have left all those places, where I have got tears by pain. I am working and also trying to find new ways of being happy. But, this new feelings of unknown fear have made me decentralized  from my way. I need to see you again before anything will be happened with me. Because I have lust to see you again in this before death. Life is so short......darling......ish...... before it comes to end, let me talk with you.
        I have no any way to walk on, but trying to walk on  the way of being happy each moment like you. My fasting is near about completed. I pray for you daily and on last day, I will pray for your well being, happiness, wealth and success on my last day of fasting. Who have seen tomorrow? this words I have always listened from elders and felt the truth of those words. Really, who have seen tomorrow? because today was yesterday's tomorrow and tomorrow will become today after few hours. So, nobody knows, what is there in future. So I have started living in today without thinking about tomorrow. Because if I have lived today with nice work, tomorrow will salute me. Lot of mistakes I do during the days, but each mistake teaches me the thing whatever I do. This is the new theme of life and I am living within. In all my moments of life, I miss you by deep of my heart. Some cold air waves remind me your walk in lawn of your place. Your hair on your face was sprucing your simple and natural beauty. I have never seen a lady like you in my whole life. Your loving heart is always calling me, this thought has covered my my mind from all other things of my life. Feeling too much lonely and not feeling anything in my heart for any other lady. May be it is not extraordinary for you, but it is very strange for me to have no feelings for any other woman rather than you. I stand daily between lot of beautiful faces, but in all faces I try to find you...... My lovely ........ish...... this is the reason I told you are my everything and you are only heaven of my life.
       My Love........My Empress .........My Madness .........ish...... I need to have you in my life forever as life partner. I have heard somewhere that true love never see money, looks and status. But always see the love in  heart. I have true love in my heart for you ..... will you accept my love in your heart? ..... Will you be mine forever as a Wife? .....would you like to marry with me? ....... if you will answer me ....... I will be in .......heaven of love.....!!!