..... desperate to see you......!!!

  

      Beloved Lovely .......Ish......!!! ....I know what is pain of teeth. It can't let you sleep in night and not let you smile in day time. I can feel your pain, but can't grab it from you. My fasting is finished and I am on routine food now. But, today I couldn't eat same as before in lunchtime. Each moment is passing with your thoughts. I had made the last model for the mall project. The day had begun with your lovely face in my closed eyes. When I opened my eyes, I started thinking about you. But, became sad when I was on dining table for breakfast. You are food lover and you have mouth pain, this thought have made me so sad in the morning time. I went to my terrace garden and seen the smile of nature in roses and vegetables grown on plants. I have no choice other than watching repeat telecast of movies in the nights. I want to talk with you a lot, but you haven't said a words to me directly. I want to tell you some silly jokes to make you smile and happy. I want to send you some link of good songs, but can't send you. When will we meet, ish??? this question annoys me. But, this time I will not complain you. I want to tell you something about recovery of burning veins in me. Yes darling !!! finally, I have found a medicine for my burning veins whatever doctors have not prescribed me. It is so common tablet for any pain and burns. I have tried it and got success.
       Everyday we learn so much from our life. Each moment of life is so precious for us. I have felt that you are so special and must be cured like that.You are strong and brave, but you are lady. You need pure love in life, because your heart is full of love. I give you lot of love like downpour over you. I send my love to you by wind, by clouds, by songs, by my words here, there on FB, on twitter. I talk with your photo like face to face talks. I have left cigarettes as I realized my life is yours and each of the moments are in your possession. I felt you always in my heart and in my breaths. Physical distance between us is still existing, but our heart have become one. Our thirsty souls have found each other and we don't need of other people between you and me. I have never stopped you to meet your friends and will never stop you in future after our marriage. I can't see you sad or with tears.  Painkillers can't kill your pains, but my love can erase it forever from you.
      Today, one event happened in front of my office which have made me so disappointed. One dog had got an infection of "Rabies". I can't see any human or animal in trouble. I feel so helpless whenever see anybody suffers from any kind of illness. It was so tragic scene when that dog was trying to walk, but couldn't walk properly. Its tongue was become longer and came out side of mouth. I can't write more about it. But, very much thankful to the nature lovers who have brought it out from gutter and taken to any other place after cleaning it. We had feed it since around 2 years.
      Before somedays, I was watching the movie "aitbaar" starring Akhay and Kareena with Priyanka. It was so clear message in this movie......ish...!!! Husband and wife must support to each other whenever any kind of anxiety covers one of them. Husband must support to his wife and give sympathetic warm hug whenever she feels so much sad or suffers by any kind of pain. He must whispers words of love in his wife's ears to realize her that he is always with her. I want to give you more than this things. I will try to never let you feel lonely by any of the moment after holding my hand for lifetime. I have only you in my world everywhere and always in my breaths. More than two years have been passed, but can still feel you are near me, around me. I feel you are watching me by each of the moments. My heart is filled by your love. Life with you is my heaven and nothing else. I have fought with you by words, but never hated any of your words. Even I felt so much loved by you. If you had cried, I had also cried a lot. Each of your photos have given me approach of your living style. Maybe God was wanted us to know each other very well before bound by the lovely and soft knit of marriage. We are not strangers for each other now and must meet in near future. I hope, you will be fine very soon and meet me anytime. One more thing to tell you, ish.... my fasting is finished so, we can have nice dinner with each other. Will you come with me ??? if yes, call me or mail me soon. I will wait for your email or call. I am going to buy a smart phone in near future. I have decide to get new number for internet usage only. So, my current number will be in my old phone. Our conversation will not be affected by that. I will send you my new number by email, so we can talk on whatsapp or line, if you will let me connect with you there.....ish.....!!!
        Missing you a lot like dried land for rain ......wriggling to meet you like person wriggles for water in burning desert ......loneliness has covered my days and nights ...... Sadness is always around me without you ......kissing your forehead ......please tolerate the pain with lot of courage .....please take care ......ish ......I love you ......and ..... desperate to see you......!!!