......there is nothing without you......!!!

     My Love .....Ish.....darling......!!! I can't find myself anywhere. Because I am always lost in you. I wanted to go somewhere and reached to other place. So many times I have faced this situation. I have stopped eating chocolates for sometimes because of your mouth pain. I have never thought to go anywhere except you. I can't describe my feelings in words, but can feel calm whenever see your words and photos. Love is not the pain, but the distance between us is the biggest pain. I have lost taste of foods whenever found the distance between us. I have only hopes to meet again with you, but having also faith in God too. God had brought us together and he will bring us together forever as husband-wife. I know, it is a blind trust on God. But, surrender to God is the thing which will show me the ways to you. I don't know which reason is stopping you to meet me. But, whatever it is will be removed by God. I have sent you e-mails, written this whole blog and write posts on FB too. But, you have never replied me on any of the links. I know, few people will jump by reading this words. But, this is truth that we have not met though you are in home town since ending dates of November 2012. But, my heart have never let me buzz a bit from my place. I don't know what do you feel??? but I can tell you about me.....Ish......I am dying by each of the bit of the moments. Each of the breaths burns me with so much pain. I can't cry and can't smile. In nights, I try to be involved in watching TV programs, but I can't. I try to maintain my garden but I have never involved myself in this activities. Even I find myself and my place in my own life.
     It was the another day without you. When I reached to Cyber Cafe, I found it closed and other one was full of waiting people. I wanted to go somewhere else for being here, but I had also not my vehicle too. Today, I had written something, but suddenly lost connectivity. Yesterday night I was thinking to go again cyber cafe. But, rain have started it work. i had no choice to go directly to home. I was unable to be here, but I had talked a lot with you in the night before going to bed. I want to finish all the hurdles whatever between us. I want to meet you and talk with you a lot. I don't know when will we meet again, but feeling that we will meet in near future. I am not having the reward of my work, but I haven't lost my hopes. One day I will get my rewards for all the works whatever I have done and currently doing.
         I miss you a lot and feeling not well everywhere .......even I think everywhere, why have I come here??? ......I feel the deep thirst to met you ......feeling like to be in middle of desert with unsatisfied deep thirst ......feeling so much desperate to meet you ......kissing your forehead ......please take care ......Ish.....I love you .....in my world ......there is nothing without you......!!!