...... you are always in me.......!!!

          My beloved darling .....Ish......!!! .....I know, I can't be here most of the time, but trust me I have always missed you by each of the moments. I don't know, why can't I get money though I work hard??? I don't know what is happening with me whenever I need to buy anything. I am so sad and angry with this situation. But, it was my decision to select business rather than job. I think, I have to leave this business activities and take any job in companies. I have to think again on my decision for the financial status. I need to give time to other fields too. I know, money is not everything between you and me. But, what will I say when your father will ask me about it??? Time is streaming so fast. The whole holy month of "Shravan" have gone and few days are remaining to complete it. The time to ask for blessing to the God is near.
        I want to talk with you a lot, but desperate for the moment which will start our direct talks. I want to meet you and share with you my all heart beats. Wherever you are now, but you are always in my heart. When will we meet??? This question is roaming in my mind all the time. Don't let anybody tell you bad words. It shows your value in their mind. However I wish to tell you anything bad, if I care for you or having you as a friend??? No, I can't use bad words for anybody who is my friend. I can't think bad word for you......ish.....!!! Don't be so angry or teased. Life is taking new turns with sharp curves.  I hope, we will meet soon with lot of love in our hearts for each other.
        Today, whatever I have become. It is all in my destiny. I am stupid or intelligent or average, everything is my destiny and the result of my work. I desperate to meet you and hold you till last breath. I want to be with you at everywhere and all the time. I have seen so many good and bad things in my life, but everything has become changed after met you. Love is not the thing which can be achieved by any kind of way, but it is the thing which teaches you what is the real heaven of life. I have seen you before around two years by few days, but those few days have changed the way of my life and living. Today, I can't see anything except you. If anybody will ask me about a "lady", I can think only about you. I haven't lived a moment without your thoughts. How to describe my feelings here in words??? But, I can tell you one thing. You have become my life and each beats of my heart. You are in my breaths and let me survive with your love for me.
       Missing you a lot with each of the moments .......feeling so much burning without you ......devoted my life to you .......kissing your forehead ......take care of your health and try to avoid food outside your home .......Fever and other diseases have become activated ......please take care ......Ish.....I love you...... you are always in me.......!!!