Thanks for call. You have asked me some questions, I don't know who are you? You have not cleared it too. May be you are my love's mother, one of her relative, neighbor, friend, teacher etc. whatever you are, but I would like to answer all your questions and try to give you exactly what I want from my mentally believed wife.
What do you want from your love? Would you want to make her a typical house wife? Do you want to make her your kids' mother only? do you want to complete you mother's desire only as marry with her? do find anything matching with her? as you have mentioned she has gone out of the country, do you wish to use her to fulfill your desire to be settle down abroad? - I cant not remind more your questions as you made me some temper at that time and I have told you to read my answers. You are exasperating to know the answers as you have told me on phone.
The person to whom I love is very different from other ladies, as she was ever free from any responsibilities, rather than studies and taking care of her self. She has the nature of mixed up her self in any environment. She loves materialistic life, but she can face any situation with limited facilities too. She loves to make friends and know about them. She want to spent all the moments with happiness. She wants to sing like birds, she wants to dance like mad, she wants to read novels, she wants to make her on prestige in the world. She can do it that is my confidence for her. She can make anybody smile even laugh in just few moments as she had made me laugh when I was in very critical condition and stretching my hair. I can say that she can behave like a woman with nice heart to anybody with great sympathy and love. She is too strong like any stone heart man who can smash your face with massive punch. She is not white beauty white beauty and not black beauty too. But she looks awesome in my words. She wears western outfits but also likes our Indian saaris and other outfits too. She looks awesome in any outfits. I have never seen her bedroom dressings so can't tell you yet. There is no chance to see her in those outfits, but imagine that she might be so cute in that too. There are lot of things which I have felt while met her and now remembering her. Her vision is too wide for life as she is good poet and writer too. She is full of abilities.
What I want from her? answer is just love, love and love, nothing more.I want to give her full support to enjoy the whole life, because life is too short and desires are so many to be satisfied. I want to support in her each movement which done achieve goals of her life. What about my goal, my goal is to be stand as strong support to her to achieve everything which she wants. I want to remove all hurdles from her life. She must reach to that place where she wants to reach. If she will make me heart of her life then it will be more than heaven for me, but not allowed in her circle will be worst than hell for me. I want to chat with her on her aims of life. I want to ask her how is she? daily many times. I want to see her each moment of my life. I don't want to loss her for a single moment till my death. I want to live in her arms and die in her arms. Because I have no words to describe situation of my heart. Men always find women weaker than them, But I want always a lady stronger than me when met her. She is the most qualitative woman which I have ever seen or my love have made my vision for her.
I will never force her to be a mother of my kids. She can live without motherhood till whole life. If she ever desire for sex, I would like to complete her by giving full of satisfaction. I have read in some books written by lady authors and also facebook pages that women want to be fully sexually satisfied in life and without it they are always feeling incomplete.
What is the definition of typical house wife? typical house wives are found in all the homes of the entire world. their duties are cleaning the house, making food for family, shopping for daily needs, satisfy kids with their needs, satisfy husband in bed, work and earn for family etc. But this is not for all women on the earth is true. If my love wants to do these duties she can do, but do not want to do so, there is no force for that.
I don't want to make her my kids' mother only. My kids will be cured by me, the father. If their mother will join me by her own desire, I will not stop her for that. Because each mother have the first right to cure her kids. This husband will be cured by him self and take care very much for his wife and mother of his kids.
My mother only wants her daughter-in-law in her home. I also want to have a nice partner whom I have found in her. She is everything for me. I can satisfy my mother's desire only with this lady who is my love.
I wants to be her wings if she wants to fly, I will be floor if she wants to dance, I want to be melody if she wants to sing, I wants to be book if she wants to read, I wants to be fire if she feel cold, I wants to be shelter if she is in rain, I wants to be cool wind if she feel hot, I wants to be her cloth if she is feeling naked, I wants to be light if she is feeling darkness, I wants to be road on which she can walk and achieve her aims, I wants to be comb which she can use for her hair.
I have nice business in India, there is no reason to leave my country. Even people who were settled there in US and Canada is returning back to home. Because today US has lost its credit after 94 years. So I am in very safe country as per finacial conditions. And what I am not having? Bunglow, car, A.C. Bedroom etc.
Even I will not mind if she will work or not. She will be independent as right now she is.
But, unfortunately she doesn't have any value of me rather than her thoughts and friends. She has never understood my beautiful feelings. I can't take breath properly whenever feels her.
Today I went to ISKON Temple to ask Lord Krishna, I have asked you for the special lady who will be my life partner and what have you given me? this sadness, this emptiness, this tears, this lonelyness, this dark night without asleep? She will never thought about me because she has just passed time with me. If she is not that lady which is for me then why you arranged our meetings. I have become mad, all my intelligence has gone with her. Send her back in my life or take my life (Garbage collection) back, I don't want it though you will send any fairy behalf of her. I want her and only her.
Now a days people saying to one another "Zindagi Naa Milegi Dobara" (you will not get the life again) I don't want this life again if she is not with me.
According to movies my situation is like "Singham" was traveling by his luxurious plain and suddenly the destiny has thrown him in the air with parachute. He has tried to open it but it can be operated by remote which is in those hands who does not identify me. I am going to the earth very fast. What will I get I don't know water or rock or land. If water then some chance will be there but rock will smash my body. But who will request her to press the open button? Who will tell her this man will never get his life back (Zindagi Naa Milegi Dobara) Hey lady you have asked so many questions, can you tell her this to her behalf of me.
I don't know what she likes and dislike but as per my guessing she likes pink and blue colors. She never like to be ignored by people. She is not arrogant but try to make other miserable with her behavior. She is so talkative and have sensitive heart. She doesn't like to cry but cry in the dark nights. She wants to be workaholic but she can't leave her thaoughts which makes her slight lazy. All this is the same which I like.
She loves tasty food, movies, music, hangout with friends etc. which are same I like.
I am going to die as my eating capacity is going down. I have lost 5+ kg weight as today I have measured. All my clothes have become so loose. All my test of tongue has become so low. I don't like to sleep too. My sleeping hours are reduced to 3-4 hours in whole 24 hours. My body wants to relax but my mind not let it to take rest. I am feeling very nervous. The impatience are increase daily. I don't want to die but dying day by day, by each moment.
I know nobody will tell her my situation but why I am writing all this on blog. I will not get relief, never. But soon will painted by red yes " Pain the Red".
I like the scene in the movie "Singham" in which the actress suddenly come and said "I love you". That is better than this dying condition. But I have said so much and she told " Who da F**k are you?"
Req: please maintain your language while calling me or sending comments.Because think you are talking with human not any animal.
" HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY"
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