Today I started my day with the desire to see my love as soon as possible on internet. I was in hurry, but again the destiny came between us. When I reached to my destination, I have got phone call from somebody who was laughing. She was Jyoti, before someday to whom I have clapped many times on her face. I have still remember her words in my mind. When she told bad wishes in my ear that the lady to whom I love will never accept my love and I will die like dog. She has destroyed me from inside and my status too. She will never understand my feelings and my dreams to share my life with her will never come true. I will never get any happiness in my life and wife in this life to whom I have loved. I will suicide in short time. My life will worse than hell. I remember more her curse that all of my friends and wherever I go, there people will laugh on me. She used many bad words for my love. She had also curse me that I will daily cry in my love's memories. I will never get which I wanted from the first and last lady of my life.
I had seen, it was the number from any European country around London. She appeared very happy and full of enjoyment. Before I say "hello", she started her talk. She asked me about my situation. I told I am fine, She again laugh very loudly and told me that she has read my blog and all facebook posts by fake id.
She again cursed me in the morning," darling ... I wish you a very bad life and wife too. (she laughed) ... Even the dog will get peace but you will not. God is with me and destroy you in just few days. Don't worry... I will come to your home after you suicide with some red roses which you ever liked on your birthday. Has she talked with you?... If you say "yes" then you are the biggest liar of the universe. I daily pray to God for my wishes for you. You can't imagine, how much I hate you. Your mother will see your dead body very soon. Write all on your blog but no any result will come. Because you have loved that lady who have hundreds of boy friends. Do you remember our last meeting when I had given you some condoms and told you that condoms will save you from HIV as you will get marry with a prostitute. I have read her blog too nice writer she is but she has not the quality like me a punjabi girl. I am fully satisfied by my husband, a tall and handsome person with medical degree. You will die with your unsatisfied desires very soon. Amit is also very happy, he met me in Egypt with nice blonde lady in one restaurant. Only you have lost everything. My darling dog ! die early so my mind will get much peace. "
I was frustrated and listened all her words each very carefully then I replied her, " I will not tell you "darling", because only one lady in the universe who deserved it from my mouth. I am happy with all my love's memory. Even each of the moment when she was with me, is golden for me. I forgive you for your curse as I had clapped you very badly. If you can tell me all this again in my present not on phone then I could explain you again with more claps. You was my very good friend but became enemy with your bad words. If I will die in few days, I will pray to God for sending me again on the earth as my love's son or daughter so I can love her and she will love me and give me lot of kisses too. you are a 'Bitch' who wish my death and all sadness. My love is a Goddess of dance and love. She is too lovely and calm. She has so many friends as she helped them. But you had no friends though you have got so beautiful look and seductive body figure too. Have you ever seen my love's eyes? you will find only love in that not curse like you. May God Bless you!! What is in my destiny only God knows but I want tell you, I have never cursed her, never in any moment. I curse daily only my destiny, to which I have asked for settle life with loving wife and it has arranged me with my love to whom I will never meet again. I will die soon or later it will be decided by God, you and me are just puppet of him. The condoms which you had given to me , had put it to civil hospitals free condom box. Because I know that I will never need it, but you must take care as your husband is doctor. If any niddle injected to any HIV patient will prick to him will become reason to having HIV AIDS. So daily ask your husband for that, ok....?? you have called me so I don't care for the phone bill .."
She cut the phone and I laughed on her with slight tears and looked again to sky. But she is right, my condition is like a dog, even worse than dog. Dog can eat, drink and sleep properly which I can't. The sleeping pills are also not functioning well. I can't sleep well and in the morning I am dozing while driving. Really the situation of love is very different than other situations.
I am thinking of my desires. What was really bad happened with me? To meet her was my destiny because I could go to that job after one month. If I went a month later, I could never met her. But the destiny has played bad game with me. I want to spend my whole life with my love and give her lot of love which she can never expect from anybody in the universe. As I have accepted her as my wife, I want to give her all the warmth, satisfactions and peaceful life to her. Nobody can imagine what is she for me? even she can't imagine that. I pray to God for her protection and prosperous life. I want to be her strength and shelter against bad feelings.
I urged to God that all my good will go to her and all her bad to me. God , Take my days from life and give to her because there is shortage of the persons like her on the earth. She can make anybody laugh in few moments and me kind of people never make laugh to any body not even my self. She is too good and cute that everybody likes her company. And for me even my classmates are not want to share a little joke with me. I wish to talk with her, play with her hair, admire her beauty, her laugh, her thoughts, her everything.
I know God is with Jyoti and her curse. I can not expect love from the lady to whom I love like my life. I am desperating for her like any dying man wants to live. If she will love me same like me and marry with me that will be the biggest miracle in the universe.
I know the truth............ But expecting from God and my destiny ................. For the biggest miracle of the Universe..........!!!
Anybody will read this blog or not ....only God will know, But Jyoti ..... I am happy that ...... you are reading this .........Just cry on your self ......... I have got the Paradise of the love ....... and you have got the life like ....... normal house wife........ !!! I will meet or not to my love ....... I don't know but one day you will get all your answers of bad wishes....... by my love ...... with all her chores.
I have faith in God......... and he will do something for me.......... May be the biggest Miracle of the Universe....!!!
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