Today is the festival day for which I wait the most during the year. Today is the Deewali, the festival of lights, fireworks, meeting people knowns and unknowns, Rangoli, decoration of home etc. Deewali is my favorite festival because it is the festival of colorful lights and colorful Rangolis. People celebrates the festival with their capacity and own style. Markets and shops are full of customers. We can see rush and crowd everywhere. In all of them I am remembering all the events happened with me and my family during the year. Let me share some most important events here.
After last Deewali I had decided to leave programing and web development work, and work with Architectural supportive services with my sister.
I had bought HP Compaq Laprtop with i5 processor and bought desktop computer i5 processor.
I had sold my old mobile phone and bought Karbonn k570.
I had started watching and hearing bollywood movies and songs.Before that I was never interested in watching or listening bollywood movies and songs.
I had left usage of Chinese "Manja" for Kite flying day,"Makarsakranti". Even I had stopped kite flying in City Area and especially beside roads.
My cousin got the major accident and admitted in ICU. We had left all hopes for him but God had saved him from the hazard of death.
I had taken my MCA studies seriously while fourth sememster and started reading for June 2011 exams.
I had accepted the offer from Dr. Kavita Sharma for the ISRO Project and started job.
I met the lady with whom I was fallen in love and chosen her as my life partner.
I had started receiving training of video editing softwares and 3D animation softwares.
I had bought the large sum of mangoes from Surat market first time. Before that I was buying it from Valsad market.
I had left all my old friends and become alone. Because they had used very bad words for the lady to whom I love the most in my life.
We got the marriage proposal for my elder sister. But before Navratri we had lost it as the person was not genuine and lier for his income and his business. We have hopes from the next year for her marriage.
We had enjoyed the Himachal valley's tour and Gangasnan at Haridwar. We had also enjoyed the snowfall first time at Rohtang. We had seen the small waterfalls from the height of mountains. We had seen the starting point of a big river "Biyas" of Punjab.
We had bought Microwave Oven for kitchen as per ladies of my home's demand.
My likes
* My favorite colors for dressings are Blue, Red, Maroon, Orange, Pink and Yellow.
* My favourite food is Icecream, Chocolate, Eggless Cakes, Sandwitches and Recipes of potatos.
* My favourite cuisine for lunch and dinner is Gujarati, Punjabi and South indian dishes.
* My favourite hollywood actresses are Marlin Monroe, Elizabeth Taylor, Nicole kidman, Natalie Portman, Penelope Cruz, Salma Hyke,Amanda Pete, Courtney Cox Arquette
* Hollywood's one of the most attractive lady celebrity as per my thought - Megan Fox
* My favorite tennis players male - Boris Backer, Pete Sampras, Vijay Amritraj, Andre Agassi, Roger Faderrer, Rafael Nadal, Goran Ivansevich
* My favorite tennis players female - Martina Navratilova, Steffie Graf, Monica Seles, Gabriela Sabatini, Kim Klijster, Maria Sharapova, Serena Williams, Yana Novotna, Jelena Jancovic, Anastasiya Myskina etc.
* My Favourite Actors male in hollywood - Al Pacino, Michael Douglas, Sean Connery, Pierce Brosnan, John Travolta, Arnold Schwarzenegar, Sylvestor Stallone, Bruce Lee, Jim Carrey, Nicholas cage, Leonardo Dicaprio, Antonio Banderas, Tom Cruise, Jackie Chan, Jet lee
* My favorite Bollywood actress - Amrita Singh, Smita Patil, Shabana Aazmi, Shridevi, Rekha, Madhuri Dixit, Kareena Kapoor, Kaajol, Hema Malini, Sharmila Tagore, Bipasha Basu, Aishwarya Ray
* My Favorite Bollywood Actors - Rajesh Khanna, Amitabh Bachchan, Sanjeevkumar, Dharmendra, Sunny Deol, Hrithik Roshan, Shahrukh khan, Salman khan, Ranbir kapoor, John Abraham
* My favorite music - instrumental music of piano, saxophone, Guitar, Santoor, Tabla, Flute, Sitar
* My favorite musician Hollywood - Vengalis
* My favorite theme music - Excaliber, Titanic, conquest of paradise, chariots of fire
* My lifetime favorite song - My heart will go on (Titanic theme song)
* My favorite musician Bollywood - Lakmikant Pyarelal, A.R.Rehman, Pritam
* My all time favorite actress Bollywood - Kaajol
This is the time which has made me freezed and in this condition I can't think what to do? Because I am in love with the lady who is not around me but she is in my mind and heart. Whenever I tried to erase her memories from them, I found my self more gripped in those memories. Six Months has gone and may be she has forgot my face and all my short talks, but I can't forget her and all her meetings with me. Her eyes, her voice, her talks everything is there in my heart and mind. I can see her at anywhere anytime. My love is increased day by day in my heart. I am feeling like, she is with me and trying to explain me something. Today I had opened her FB profile by my friend's profile. She has stopped people to see her wall and activities on FB. I want to go close to her and she is going away from me. The thought is killing me day by day is, what will be happened when she will marry with somebody? Will I alive or die? This question is killing me. I have two thoughts in my mind, one is - I am in love with her unconditionally so I have to pray for her happy life. Second is - I can't live without her and if she will not with me I have to give up living. Both thoughts have made me unemployed person. I am spending money from my previous earnings. I can't understand what to do? I am praying to God lord krishna to show me the way in this darkness of lifepath. I have devoted my life to her love so marry with other lady is not possible. If it will happen then the lady who will marry me will suffer a lot as her husband is not her. I thinking like a teenage boy and I am on greed , this is the sentence told by my mother. But this is my feelings for my love.
My love is the simple lady and she is busy in her study. I am also studying but my mind is not supporting me. I am being useless and skill less day by day. My food is going least and my body weight is going less. I have lost 11 KGs in last 6 months. But good news is that that my smoking habit, chewing pan masala habit all is abandoned. I can't remember those bad habits. My dressing sense is also reverting to cowboy type dressings - checks shirt and jeans with rough and tough shoes. I had left this dressing style at my age of 30 yrs and after 4 years it has come back. But everywhere I am missing her and her smiling face.
She is really my "Madness", Harry's Madness. I am not angry with her or trying to tease her. I have left watching her because her conversation with others was hurting me. But today I had seen her. Tomorrow is Hindu New Year and my mom is going to make an eggless chocolate cake for us. Let me see the magic of microwave oven in my kitchen. The deewali is a festival of lights but all the lights of the universe can not break the darkness of my heart and lifepath.
But I have to survive and I have to meet people and I have to say them ...... Happy Deewali.
May be she will read or not this but I want to say her in soft voice while kissing her forehead and looking into her eyes ............... Happy Deewali ...... my Love ......my Empress ........ My Madness.....!!!
My blessings and greetings are always with you ....... May God protect you as you are in foreign country. You and your happiness worth for me so don't be sad, may be next year you will celebrate this festival with your family. Eat something sweet as this is our biggest festival in thee year ............ Lord Krishna will Bless you.......I wish you by heart ......... Happy Deewali and prosperous New year.....!!!
After last Deewali I had decided to leave programing and web development work, and work with Architectural supportive services with my sister.
I had bought HP Compaq Laprtop with i5 processor and bought desktop computer i5 processor.
I had sold my old mobile phone and bought Karbonn k570.
I had started watching and hearing bollywood movies and songs.Before that I was never interested in watching or listening bollywood movies and songs.
I had left usage of Chinese "Manja" for Kite flying day,"Makarsakranti". Even I had stopped kite flying in City Area and especially beside roads.
My cousin got the major accident and admitted in ICU. We had left all hopes for him but God had saved him from the hazard of death.
I had taken my MCA studies seriously while fourth sememster and started reading for June 2011 exams.
I had accepted the offer from Dr. Kavita Sharma for the ISRO Project and started job.
I met the lady with whom I was fallen in love and chosen her as my life partner.
I had started receiving training of video editing softwares and 3D animation softwares.
I had bought the large sum of mangoes from Surat market first time. Before that I was buying it from Valsad market.
I had left all my old friends and become alone. Because they had used very bad words for the lady to whom I love the most in my life.
We got the marriage proposal for my elder sister. But before Navratri we had lost it as the person was not genuine and lier for his income and his business. We have hopes from the next year for her marriage.
We had enjoyed the Himachal valley's tour and Gangasnan at Haridwar. We had also enjoyed the snowfall first time at Rohtang. We had seen the small waterfalls from the height of mountains. We had seen the starting point of a big river "Biyas" of Punjab.
We had bought Microwave Oven for kitchen as per ladies of my home's demand.
My likes
* My favorite colors for dressings are Blue, Red, Maroon, Orange, Pink and Yellow.
* My favourite food is Icecream, Chocolate, Eggless Cakes, Sandwitches and Recipes of potatos.
* My favourite cuisine for lunch and dinner is Gujarati, Punjabi and South indian dishes.
* My favourite hollywood actresses are Marlin Monroe, Elizabeth Taylor, Nicole kidman, Natalie Portman, Penelope Cruz, Salma Hyke,Amanda Pete, Courtney Cox Arquette
* Hollywood's one of the most attractive lady celebrity as per my thought - Megan Fox
* My favorite tennis players male - Boris Backer, Pete Sampras, Vijay Amritraj, Andre Agassi, Roger Faderrer, Rafael Nadal, Goran Ivansevich
* My favorite tennis players female - Martina Navratilova, Steffie Graf, Monica Seles, Gabriela Sabatini, Kim Klijster, Maria Sharapova, Serena Williams, Yana Novotna, Jelena Jancovic, Anastasiya Myskina etc.
* My Favourite Actors male in hollywood - Al Pacino, Michael Douglas, Sean Connery, Pierce Brosnan, John Travolta, Arnold Schwarzenegar, Sylvestor Stallone, Bruce Lee, Jim Carrey, Nicholas cage, Leonardo Dicaprio, Antonio Banderas, Tom Cruise, Jackie Chan, Jet lee
* My favorite Bollywood actress - Amrita Singh, Smita Patil, Shabana Aazmi, Shridevi, Rekha, Madhuri Dixit, Kareena Kapoor, Kaajol, Hema Malini, Sharmila Tagore, Bipasha Basu, Aishwarya Ray
* My Favorite Bollywood Actors - Rajesh Khanna, Amitabh Bachchan, Sanjeevkumar, Dharmendra, Sunny Deol, Hrithik Roshan, Shahrukh khan, Salman khan, Ranbir kapoor, John Abraham
* My favorite music - instrumental music of piano, saxophone, Guitar, Santoor, Tabla, Flute, Sitar
* My favorite musician Hollywood - Vengalis
* My favorite theme music - Excaliber, Titanic, conquest of paradise, chariots of fire
* My lifetime favorite song - My heart will go on (Titanic theme song)
* My favorite musician Bollywood - Lakmikant Pyarelal, A.R.Rehman, Pritam
* My all time favorite actress Bollywood - Kaajol
This is the time which has made me freezed and in this condition I can't think what to do? Because I am in love with the lady who is not around me but she is in my mind and heart. Whenever I tried to erase her memories from them, I found my self more gripped in those memories. Six Months has gone and may be she has forgot my face and all my short talks, but I can't forget her and all her meetings with me. Her eyes, her voice, her talks everything is there in my heart and mind. I can see her at anywhere anytime. My love is increased day by day in my heart. I am feeling like, she is with me and trying to explain me something. Today I had opened her FB profile by my friend's profile. She has stopped people to see her wall and activities on FB. I want to go close to her and she is going away from me. The thought is killing me day by day is, what will be happened when she will marry with somebody? Will I alive or die? This question is killing me. I have two thoughts in my mind, one is - I am in love with her unconditionally so I have to pray for her happy life. Second is - I can't live without her and if she will not with me I have to give up living. Both thoughts have made me unemployed person. I am spending money from my previous earnings. I can't understand what to do? I am praying to God lord krishna to show me the way in this darkness of lifepath. I have devoted my life to her love so marry with other lady is not possible. If it will happen then the lady who will marry me will suffer a lot as her husband is not her. I thinking like a teenage boy and I am on greed , this is the sentence told by my mother. But this is my feelings for my love.
My love is the simple lady and she is busy in her study. I am also studying but my mind is not supporting me. I am being useless and skill less day by day. My food is going least and my body weight is going less. I have lost 11 KGs in last 6 months. But good news is that that my smoking habit, chewing pan masala habit all is abandoned. I can't remember those bad habits. My dressing sense is also reverting to cowboy type dressings - checks shirt and jeans with rough and tough shoes. I had left this dressing style at my age of 30 yrs and after 4 years it has come back. But everywhere I am missing her and her smiling face.
She is really my "Madness", Harry's Madness. I am not angry with her or trying to tease her. I have left watching her because her conversation with others was hurting me. But today I had seen her. Tomorrow is Hindu New Year and my mom is going to make an eggless chocolate cake for us. Let me see the magic of microwave oven in my kitchen. The deewali is a festival of lights but all the lights of the universe can not break the darkness of my heart and lifepath.
But I have to survive and I have to meet people and I have to say them ...... Happy Deewali.
May be she will read or not this but I want to say her in soft voice while kissing her forehead and looking into her eyes ............... Happy Deewali ...... my Love ......my Empress ........ My Madness.....!!!
My blessings and greetings are always with you ....... May God protect you as you are in foreign country. You and your happiness worth for me so don't be sad, may be next year you will celebrate this festival with your family. Eat something sweet as this is our biggest festival in thee year ............ Lord Krishna will Bless you.......I wish you by heart ......... Happy Deewali and prosperous New year.....!!!
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