......I am in love with you........!!!

      Last few hours has spin my head and after thinking on the whole event, I have found that there was no any mistake done by me or her. Because she is not that kind of lady who tell about herself to the public. I have found her ever silent on important topics. I have ever found her naughty about the things which she didn't like or trying to attract her. She is so intelligent, but she had never told it or tried to show it to people. I was also not wrong, because anybody wants to hear his loving lady's voice about his sayings to her. I have told her all small events of my life. I have got some nervousness about my love life, so I had written too much  and told her so many things. But after tried too much in last few hours, I have reached at the decisive point that I will continue to love her, if she will love me or not. Accept me and my love or not. I am not disabled or illiterate person. I have never got the first position, but I am learned and I have the skills. I accept my skills are not sharp, but it is useful to earn more than enough money to live nice luxurious and materialistic life at anywhere in the world.
     I will not leave her alone for a moment, but she doesn't want to talk to me I will also not force her to talk with me. I know she feels bad about me, but I am a straight forward man. I will tell you whatever I feel about you. That is my nature to speak out my thoughts to any person. I am not the man who tolerates and talk behind you. If I will feel you are not looking good today, I will tell you. I know I have done big mistake of hitting my friend who was lady. I know she doesn't like any lady's insult, though she maybe her rival. That is the reason I love my "Madness" the most. I will call her my "Madness" till my last breath. The problem is that, she is not saying anything about our relationship. Will it be done or not?
     She has stopped writing on her wall of FB. Maybe she is quite busy or in that area where internet facility is not available. I love her, but I am always enthusiastic to get her review about our love. Suddenly yesterday my Mom has asked me that, if "Madness" will call me, what should I do? I looked at my mom and just smiled. I told her that I will invite her to change the format of my life. And really I want to be remade by her self. I am the system which was designed and made by myself. If any Architect will redesign me, it will be my new birth. I don't know why I was watching her parents' photos and seen her mom's face, I felt I have met her before so many years ago. I don't know why but her eyes have the same form like my eyes. I am so quick in making relations with people who doesn't know me. Nobody knows the future and what will be happened in next moment. My mom has ever told me that not to be so proud on anything. She had told me that I will be broken if anybody will break my ego. Yes, that words have destroyed my bad image in society. I have believed my "Madness" as wife by my self. But It is depend on her to own me as a husband or not. I know this is very serious matter and should not be discussed in public. But I have no option to talk with her about anything.
      I want to be rebuild by her. I want to live like her thoughts and methods. Because I have totally surrendered to her. I have started to correct my mistakes. I am going to be separated from my supports. I have started to create my own status and standalone image. People have talked too much about me and my personal abilities. I am writing all here as my family wants to push me out of the home. I am finding new rental residence to live alone. I don't want to quarrel with anybody in this world, because life is too small and not for any nuisance. We are really living on rent in this world. God has send us  in the world to enjoy the world and the beauty of the life. There are so many thorns and sharp stones on the road of my life. But I have to walk on this road. The darkness of night has covered my day light, but one day I will get my golden morning again. If the God's blessing will with me, I will get the cold shadow of love in the burning hard Sun light. I don't know what will happened after left my family? But I can assure about future that it will be quiet and pleasant. Family doesn't need my present in my own home. I have lost another strong position of my life. Everything is going and so much has gone, but I have not lost my faith, courage and enthusiasm. My adventurous nature will give me success in my life. Maybe I will not become so popular in the society, but I will get self satisfaction of lived peacefully. The stumbles will reshape me in my old age. But till that moment I have to live with my abilities.
     I have to see the market again for me and my business. I have to earn money to live nicely and with facilities. I don't want to be loser in this life, because losers are the dead people and I am not dead. I am alive and having the power to rebuild myself. I have urged my "Madness" to hold my hand for this life. But she may laugh on this matter. But I will ever stop me to hold her hand. But there are so many strong hands and positioned people from whom she will choose. So many troubles and problems are there in our life, but we are Indian people and should be live for our duties about our liabilities.
      My love life is in danger situation. I have to continue ignite the candle of my love in this stormy environment. I don't know what will be happened in my life, but I have to move forward. The wind, the rain and the flood will come and destroy again and again my planet, but I will make it and decorate it again and again. I don't care for any ignorance by anybody. In all this dismissal situations, I am not sure about my future. I need peace and love in my life and that is the goal of my life.
     I don't know if she will open her mouth or not. But I will say it very loudly ......My "Madness".......... till my death..........I am in love with you........!!!