We always want peace and happiness in our life, but somewhere nuisance and tears take place in our life. We are normal people and living our general routine life. When we were child our parents were ever try to give us the best things whatever we demanded to them. When we went to high school, we had learned so many subject including drawing and music. We are all different from each other and in our college life we always tried to show ourselves different than others. We had ever tried to listen the first release of new songs album and always tried to watch new released movie in first show. We have ever enjoyed restaurant food behalf of our home made food while college days.
It was the story of me from school to college. But in college I was not interested in normal life and normal adjustments which are called Compromise. When my classmates were talking about bollywood movies, I was remembering Hollywood movies' scenes. I was ever found at video cassettes' libraries. All the library holders were ever reserved the new movie's cassettes for me. Me, Molly and Tushar, all three idiots were watched the movies and chatted about some scenes. But few movies I had seen with my cousin and friends, because those movies were not for Molly. It was Basic instinct 1 and 2, Body of Evidance, Pretty Woman etc. I was ever interested in westernized culture. Singing loudly english songs, try to copy few stars with dialogues, Dancing like Micahel jackson in class rooms while empty, calling friends with english names etc. was my likes. I had got happy when my father had asked me for MBA in foreign university. But when I had listen the fees and living expenses, I had neglected his offer. He was so excited to send me out of India, but I have never tried to accept his wish. But after few years I have got interest in leaving India and set my life in foreign country with Molly. But unfortunately I had lost her and left the thoughts of set my life in foreign country.
In 2006 I had decided to live like complete Indian man and never wish to go out of India. I have ever tried to set my life in India, but I was ever became victim of upper class people's politics and partiality. I had lost so many good opportunities to set my life very well in my home town. Finally, I had decided to change my field to my sister's working field. She is an Architect and I had started to know her working and dealing with work styles. I was fully aware before with her field as So many times I had helped her while her studies. Whenever I watched any tennis club or tennis court, I remember my days when I was always with tennis racket. But as usual in our country I became victim of politics and could not go on in my tennis career. I think it is not good for any country, in which the players are awarded with insult.
After so few years I had got part time job offer from wel known place of my home town. It was the place where I met my love.......my Empress .......My "Madness". But before I realized her love, I had remembered the betrayal for the community which have ruined my tennis career. There was a tall man who was my neighbor had always remind me about that community. I never liked that community's people till met my love there. After meeting her the word "Betrayal" was erased from my vocabulary of thinking.
My "Madness" has destroyed my anger, proud, ruthlessness, community based thoughts, greediness, hatred for love and lovers and so many things which had made my life so bad and negative. I was enemy of bollywood songs and movies. I have ever laughed on poets and poetry. But when she met me, I have remembered my college days, in which I was became famous for my rhymes and short stories. I can say that she has re-paint my life by her colors. She has remind me about joking, laughing, smiling and fashion. When I had met her I was feeling some unknown feelings. What was going on in my life I could not realized. My life was being changed and I was just watching it. I was streaming with the stream of feelings for her. I could not thought about some matters like, who was she? what was her full name? which religion she was following? was she Hindu or Parsi or Muslim? I had not thought about those questions. When I had seen her first look, I thought she was Muslim girl. After listened her talking style and voice I guessed she was Parsi. But finally after talked with her I had got that she was the local Hindu lady. But it was not affected me if she was not Hindu. Because it was all the special feelings were coming in my mind. So many of my friends have asked me the reason of loving her. It was the word "WHY" and my answer was " I don't know". Still my answer is same for that word.
It is the holy feelings only once comes in everybody's life. It is those feelings which is the most important part of everybody's life. It is the special feelings came in my heart for her and I had started writing this blog. It was the co-incident or magic of God that my message has reached to her, otherwise people who had gone from our life can not hear our words forever. But I had got the blessings from my friend who is your God, who have created the bridge between me and her. Whenever I think about it, I thank my Friend who is called God. I am talking with him whenever I am sad.
I would like to write here about the magic which was happened next day after that event. As a daily routine, I had completed my rosary of Krishna mantra. While packing the rosary, suddenly I had started talking with him. I had told him, Do you have shame? I will complete my 35 years after a month. Find any calm lady for me and show me, if I will like her. The next day, I met my love .........my Empress .......my "Madness". But after seen her, I was laughing while starting my scooter. When she was here, I could not realized that I was liking her so much. I know this kind of talk will present me as PSYCHO. But it is the true matter that I had prayed to God and the next day I met her. I don't know what will the people say about that event, but it is the magic for me. It is also unbelievable that I am loving somebody like "Mad". Because I was the most selfish man in the world. I was feeling less, rude, ever ignored people, ever watched women for entertainment nothing for else.
But after 7 months, I can tell you about her looks and all her naughty acts. Because she has given me the taste of life, She has remind me all my died interests, she had given me the hidden message of enjoying my life. I had given her the most important place in my heart. I would like to tell her,
Thank you .....Darling ..!!!..... for came in my colorless life and filled it with all beautiful colors. You have converted dessert of my heart into beautiful Garden. Really ....!!! ......God had sent you in my life to aware me with the wonders of the amazing life. I don't know, we will meet again or not. May be we will meet again at anywhere, but will I tell you about my feelings and those magical words? I don't know. I have left all on God and destiny. Are you thinking about that three magical words.....??? ......Oh ....come on ......you know it ......Darling......!!! .........those words are ...."I Love you".... I know you will never accept it ..as you are thinking about people and their talks. Some people will tell you , "hey are you demoting?". But I will love you till the end of my life. May be we will meet again or not physically. But ...you will feel ....very strange.......that ....mentally ........I meet you ....daily...!!!
It was the story of me from school to college. But in college I was not interested in normal life and normal adjustments which are called Compromise. When my classmates were talking about bollywood movies, I was remembering Hollywood movies' scenes. I was ever found at video cassettes' libraries. All the library holders were ever reserved the new movie's cassettes for me. Me, Molly and Tushar, all three idiots were watched the movies and chatted about some scenes. But few movies I had seen with my cousin and friends, because those movies were not for Molly. It was Basic instinct 1 and 2, Body of Evidance, Pretty Woman etc. I was ever interested in westernized culture. Singing loudly english songs, try to copy few stars with dialogues, Dancing like Micahel jackson in class rooms while empty, calling friends with english names etc. was my likes. I had got happy when my father had asked me for MBA in foreign university. But when I had listen the fees and living expenses, I had neglected his offer. He was so excited to send me out of India, but I have never tried to accept his wish. But after few years I have got interest in leaving India and set my life in foreign country with Molly. But unfortunately I had lost her and left the thoughts of set my life in foreign country.
In 2006 I had decided to live like complete Indian man and never wish to go out of India. I have ever tried to set my life in India, but I was ever became victim of upper class people's politics and partiality. I had lost so many good opportunities to set my life very well in my home town. Finally, I had decided to change my field to my sister's working field. She is an Architect and I had started to know her working and dealing with work styles. I was fully aware before with her field as So many times I had helped her while her studies. Whenever I watched any tennis club or tennis court, I remember my days when I was always with tennis racket. But as usual in our country I became victim of politics and could not go on in my tennis career. I think it is not good for any country, in which the players are awarded with insult.
After so few years I had got part time job offer from wel known place of my home town. It was the place where I met my love.......my Empress .......My "Madness". But before I realized her love, I had remembered the betrayal for the community which have ruined my tennis career. There was a tall man who was my neighbor had always remind me about that community. I never liked that community's people till met my love there. After meeting her the word "Betrayal" was erased from my vocabulary of thinking.
My "Madness" has destroyed my anger, proud, ruthlessness, community based thoughts, greediness, hatred for love and lovers and so many things which had made my life so bad and negative. I was enemy of bollywood songs and movies. I have ever laughed on poets and poetry. But when she met me, I have remembered my college days, in which I was became famous for my rhymes and short stories. I can say that she has re-paint my life by her colors. She has remind me about joking, laughing, smiling and fashion. When I had met her I was feeling some unknown feelings. What was going on in my life I could not realized. My life was being changed and I was just watching it. I was streaming with the stream of feelings for her. I could not thought about some matters like, who was she? what was her full name? which religion she was following? was she Hindu or Parsi or Muslim? I had not thought about those questions. When I had seen her first look, I thought she was Muslim girl. After listened her talking style and voice I guessed she was Parsi. But finally after talked with her I had got that she was the local Hindu lady. But it was not affected me if she was not Hindu. Because it was all the special feelings were coming in my mind. So many of my friends have asked me the reason of loving her. It was the word "WHY" and my answer was " I don't know". Still my answer is same for that word.
It is the holy feelings only once comes in everybody's life. It is those feelings which is the most important part of everybody's life. It is the special feelings came in my heart for her and I had started writing this blog. It was the co-incident or magic of God that my message has reached to her, otherwise people who had gone from our life can not hear our words forever. But I had got the blessings from my friend who is your God, who have created the bridge between me and her. Whenever I think about it, I thank my Friend who is called God. I am talking with him whenever I am sad.
I would like to write here about the magic which was happened next day after that event. As a daily routine, I had completed my rosary of Krishna mantra. While packing the rosary, suddenly I had started talking with him. I had told him, Do you have shame? I will complete my 35 years after a month. Find any calm lady for me and show me, if I will like her. The next day, I met my love .........my Empress .......my "Madness". But after seen her, I was laughing while starting my scooter. When she was here, I could not realized that I was liking her so much. I know this kind of talk will present me as PSYCHO. But it is the true matter that I had prayed to God and the next day I met her. I don't know what will the people say about that event, but it is the magic for me. It is also unbelievable that I am loving somebody like "Mad". Because I was the most selfish man in the world. I was feeling less, rude, ever ignored people, ever watched women for entertainment nothing for else.
But after 7 months, I can tell you about her looks and all her naughty acts. Because she has given me the taste of life, She has remind me all my died interests, she had given me the hidden message of enjoying my life. I had given her the most important place in my heart. I would like to tell her,
Thank you .....Darling ..!!!..... for came in my colorless life and filled it with all beautiful colors. You have converted dessert of my heart into beautiful Garden. Really ....!!! ......God had sent you in my life to aware me with the wonders of the amazing life. I don't know, we will meet again or not. May be we will meet again at anywhere, but will I tell you about my feelings and those magical words? I don't know. I have left all on God and destiny. Are you thinking about that three magical words.....??? ......Oh ....come on ......you know it ......Darling......!!! .........those words are ...."I Love you".... I know you will never accept it ..as you are thinking about people and their talks. Some people will tell you , "hey are you demoting?". But I will love you till the end of my life. May be we will meet again or not physically. But ...you will feel ....very strange.......that ....mentally ........I meet you ....daily...!!!
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