Today it was for social meetings and party. I have just returned from a big, but boring party. All the people was meeting to each other like they have met there after so many years. I met few known people and listen some sufi type songs from bollywood movies presented by the local orchestra. I had seen the items made for dinner and called my mom for cooking my dinner at home. It was a massive traffic jam as today is Sunday. I had seen crowd outside of restaurants. Some people was eating Boiled American Corn to satisfy their hunger at primary stage. But I came out from all that crowd and came back to home.
I have seen so many known faces who had met me while working at my "Madness"' place. They behaved with me like strangers, but I went to them like calm friend. They talked with me just for formalities. I could realized that they were feeling some interruption while meeting me. One of them was seemed little sad while talking with me. He told me that trust in God.....All will be alright soon. I was just trying to guess that may be he knew everything about my Love story. It has made me little sentimental at that time in crowd. I started feeling her at that place and it was become so impatient for me to be there for just a moment. So, left the place immediately without saying to anybody.
I was listening songs while driving and thinking about my "Madness". I thought may be some people had revealed that my condition was being bad everyday. But I have seen my face and all expressions in mirror when reached at home. I found nothing for worry about on my face. I had seen thoroughly on my face and found that my face was seemed like sad man's face. It is the sour truth of my daily life. Love has become undivided part of my life. I think it will be in me till my end.
Whenever, I am not so tall and handsome man. So, I am nobody's dream ever in past, present and future. My eyes become too small while smiling and laughing. My upper lip ever got rounded while talking with people. I am not fair and also not looking like extraordinary man. I am not superman who can fulfill anybody's desires at anytime. I am a simple Surti man, who can live like normal man and behave like him. I can talk like normal people living here. Because I have not done personality development classes. My English is not so good as I have taken my education in my mother-tongue. I can't speak english so fluently as I have not taken TOEFL or IELTS training. I had my own dreams and way to live my life. But before 7 months it was all true for me. But after meeting My love.....My Empress .....My Madness.......I realized that life is not for living normally. She has memorized me my dreams and goals of my life, which I had seen while my college days.
Before few days, one person had asked me about my love. Is it one side or both side ? I had replied him I don't know.I told him that my love is an unconditional love. She can love me, She can hate me, She can laugh on me, She can cry for me, she can abandon me, She can marry me. I have made her free to take decision for the life as she will do whatever she likes. I don't want to make her prisoner of my love cage, but want to make her more and more powerful in the real life. She is living her college life and campus is her world. Her friends are her world and her teachers are her guide. She doesn't need me and my love at this time. But I am on that stage of life where I have to choose a lady for as my life partner. Because I am facing social pressure from family and relatives. But my thoughts are different from them and thinking about life without marriage. I am don't curse her at any level, but thinking of the event happened in my life. She is so beautiful that I can't find a beautiful lady like her in this universe. I felt her as my soul-mate, but she may be not feeling the same. "Love is part of life and not the heart of life" - this slogan was ever told by my mouth to so many boys and girls who have fallen in Love.
But now-a-days the slogan is rotated and become "Love is heart of life and not the part of life". I am looking so far on my life path and not seeing anything helpful to me at this time. I love her like a dying man desperates for his next breath, a thirsty man wish for water, a hungry man cry for a small part of food, a dry soil wants the rain. What is she feeling for me? She knows and God knows. But I know I love her so much. I adore her, I worship her, I worry for her, She is in my prays, She is my goddess, She is my purity, She is my patience, She is my passion, She is my caliber, She is my proud, She is my honey, She is my sweetest sweet.
I don't know what will be happened next as I have suddenly got increment in my height about 1 inch. Increment in height .......at age of 35 .......is it possible....??? ....But it is true.
My love .........My Empress.........my Madness .......God is at my side and he will guide me on the way of my life. I feel his blessings daily while talking with him. I have ever prayed for her and told God that .......make her ever happy and healthy. Her smile and naughty acts make her special from all the ladies. So, always make her special .......very Special .....!!!
I have seen so many known faces who had met me while working at my "Madness"' place. They behaved with me like strangers, but I went to them like calm friend. They talked with me just for formalities. I could realized that they were feeling some interruption while meeting me. One of them was seemed little sad while talking with me. He told me that trust in God.....All will be alright soon. I was just trying to guess that may be he knew everything about my Love story. It has made me little sentimental at that time in crowd. I started feeling her at that place and it was become so impatient for me to be there for just a moment. So, left the place immediately without saying to anybody.
I was listening songs while driving and thinking about my "Madness". I thought may be some people had revealed that my condition was being bad everyday. But I have seen my face and all expressions in mirror when reached at home. I found nothing for worry about on my face. I had seen thoroughly on my face and found that my face was seemed like sad man's face. It is the sour truth of my daily life. Love has become undivided part of my life. I think it will be in me till my end.
Whenever, I am not so tall and handsome man. So, I am nobody's dream ever in past, present and future. My eyes become too small while smiling and laughing. My upper lip ever got rounded while talking with people. I am not fair and also not looking like extraordinary man. I am not superman who can fulfill anybody's desires at anytime. I am a simple Surti man, who can live like normal man and behave like him. I can talk like normal people living here. Because I have not done personality development classes. My English is not so good as I have taken my education in my mother-tongue. I can't speak english so fluently as I have not taken TOEFL or IELTS training. I had my own dreams and way to live my life. But before 7 months it was all true for me. But after meeting My love.....My Empress .....My Madness.......I realized that life is not for living normally. She has memorized me my dreams and goals of my life, which I had seen while my college days.
Before few days, one person had asked me about my love. Is it one side or both side ? I had replied him I don't know.I told him that my love is an unconditional love. She can love me, She can hate me, She can laugh on me, She can cry for me, she can abandon me, She can marry me. I have made her free to take decision for the life as she will do whatever she likes. I don't want to make her prisoner of my love cage, but want to make her more and more powerful in the real life. She is living her college life and campus is her world. Her friends are her world and her teachers are her guide. She doesn't need me and my love at this time. But I am on that stage of life where I have to choose a lady for as my life partner. Because I am facing social pressure from family and relatives. But my thoughts are different from them and thinking about life without marriage. I am don't curse her at any level, but thinking of the event happened in my life. She is so beautiful that I can't find a beautiful lady like her in this universe. I felt her as my soul-mate, but she may be not feeling the same. "Love is part of life and not the heart of life" - this slogan was ever told by my mouth to so many boys and girls who have fallen in Love.
But now-a-days the slogan is rotated and become "Love is heart of life and not the part of life". I am looking so far on my life path and not seeing anything helpful to me at this time. I love her like a dying man desperates for his next breath, a thirsty man wish for water, a hungry man cry for a small part of food, a dry soil wants the rain. What is she feeling for me? She knows and God knows. But I know I love her so much. I adore her, I worship her, I worry for her, She is in my prays, She is my goddess, She is my purity, She is my patience, She is my passion, She is my caliber, She is my proud, She is my honey, She is my sweetest sweet.
I don't know what will be happened next as I have suddenly got increment in my height about 1 inch. Increment in height .......at age of 35 .......is it possible....??? ....But it is true.
My love .........My Empress.........my Madness .......God is at my side and he will guide me on the way of my life. I feel his blessings daily while talking with him. I have ever prayed for her and told God that .......make her ever happy and healthy. Her smile and naughty acts make her special from all the ladies. So, always make her special .......very Special .....!!!
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