Friday, February 10, 2012

.......please take care......!!!

        It is very hard to understand human minds. My client, who was asking for the completion of the project was gone to marriage ceremony and calling me for the submission of the project. Suddenly, I agreed to give him the final images and he told me to meet tomorrow. Why the people wants to disturb others' routine life. I wanted to tell him that since last 48 hours I have not seen my beloved "Madness". But, remembered that the world is money oriented and can't understand love and heart feelings. I am really feeling stress of working and thinking about other waiting projects and clients. It is quite hard to work with the local PCs. Because high resolution results need advance PCs. I have the advance PCs, but not fully loaded with the gadgets. Tomorrow is the most important day as I am going to talk with the client who wants to work with me on animation project. In all this tension I was remembering you, my Love. Because without watching you, my day doesn't start. I feel too much annoyed and feeling very odd till watch you. After watching you, I can jump in fire or walk on thorns or fight with monsters. Really, I feel fully energized after watching you. Your innocent eyes and smile brings my mind and heart to the romantic world. How many  days this will continue ? I can't imagine or think. I don't want to think any negative matter regarding our love and relationship.
       It was the day of 7th, February my parents' wedding anniversary. Both has completed 40 years successfully of their married life. We were all very happy on that day and celebrated it with chocolate cake. We have not invited anybody for that party. I was thinking about my love life with you. I don't know what is there in your mind and future. But I want to think positively about you and our relationship. My all cold nights are going with remembering you. Your love has made me more easy to live the life and your smile has ever made my days beautiful. What to do? this question has got the answer. It is better to do something rather than nothing to do. So, I have started to get projects on my hands. One is going to finish and three are in waiting raws. Thank you darling !!! for praying me, please continue it. Because we have to travel the whole world to gather and we need money for that. I have seen that you have habit of spending money for costly gadgets and dresses. You like to have all the most costly material in your cart. You like to purchase things from heavily costly malls and show rooms. For all that activities, we must have lot of money to purchase those things.
     The whole world is running behind the money and prestige. But I am running behind money just for you and our future. I am the person who can live with simplicity, but you have no habit to live with simplicity. If you are thinking, you are living very simply then you are thinking wrong, darling!!! Because, just see around you and think about the place where you are right now. Yes, you have got the answer. You are at that place where no any ordinary people can reach. If anybody wants to reach there, he/ she needs money. I think it is enough lecture about money. There is nobody who can listen my words so I have written here. I am teased and writing here, the time is 2: 40 a.m. and the night is very cool. It is the most boring work of photoshop. Your most lovely software. I am missing you very much.
     If you may be here with me, I could hug you very tightly and could get your warmth in this cool night. I am really missing you too much. Today, from morning to till time I was trying to open the browser and phone calls came on my cell. But, I have got the time to see you and tell you. At this time no body can disturb me and I can see you with peace of mind. I can hear your name in my heart beats. My moments have become alive and tears came out while opening your photo. So, innocent you are and your smile too. So lovely eyes you have which inspire me to live each moment by using it for work. All the tensions has gone and I have become fully energized again. Hey, do you like the piano? I like it too. I know few rhythms on it. I have small electronic keyboard. Whenever I get time, I play it. I am really feeling too bored. Please tell me, when will you come back. One thing I am forgetting to tell you  that my MCA result has been declared and I have passed 9 papers out of 13. I think I will complete my PG in June exams. I have started to read few books, but not thoroughly reading it. I want tip from you to read books, if you can tell me any trick to read the books.
      My love.........My Empress.........My "Madness".......I am waiting for you. I want to meet you and want to tell you how much pain I am feeling. I love you like dying man desperate for next breath. you are my world and you are my everything. Please, don't be angry if I have made you bored. I am trying to earn for our better future life. I have heard that you wanted to hit me. I don't know why the people are making rumors. Darling!!! you are the special lady and everybody wants you in their life. So, people are making this kind of rumors for us.  Let them live with there rumors and let's carry on living with our love and relationship which is really different from all lovers. Lady is there on foreign lands and man is there in his home. Man is writing on blog whatever is there in his mind and lady is there with her friends. Both are talking but people can't understand their language, because they can see them by mind. They can't feel the pain of love and burning in cold nights. Nobody can understand me and my situation. I don't want to think that what will happen if you will not accept me and my love, because negative thoughts make me nervous and angry. I start fight with God and destiny in nights. I don't know when will you come back? I don't know what have you thought for your future? I don't know will you come back or not? I don't know what is your parents have thought for you? I don't know how will they react, if you will tell them about me? I don't know what is future planning?
      But, out of all questions, I want to tell you, I love you and will continue loving you till my last breath. I want to have you in my life and I will try to reach you. But, what is God's planning we don't know. I have left all the things on him, because he has bought us to gather and we met at your place. hey, I had visited your place on Sunday. Nobody was there in lawn where I have seen you walking  slowly and thinking about something. Your silky hair was flying in air and the reflected sun light has made your beautiful face more bright. I was with my classmate. When I had reach at the lawn area and sit there where each student have sit once while studying at your place. Suddenly, few tears came in my eyes. The boy asked me " what happened ?". I replied "few dust has gone in my eyes." He became serious and told me that he was not a little kid.
He asked me," who is that lady for whom you are desperating ? "
I had told him it is the big love story and we have not sufficient time to talk about that.
He smiled and we both came out from that place. I haven't forget any of the moment which I have spend with you. I was not aware about the feelings came in my heart at that time. Otherwise, I had asked you about love. But, destiny has written something different for us. We fought on my blog and you have blocked me again and again. My love got increment day by day. Now the tree of love has too much grown up. It is still growing up and reaching to the new heights. I am enjoying to love you. I am feeling so lonely and bored. I want to hug you. I want meet you. But, there are lot of hurdles between you and me. I am feeling I am doing crime while watching any other lady. So, I have stopped visiting public places. Because, there are so many ladies daily visits those places and I don't want to feel guilty if I will see them by mistake. You have changed me, darling!!! your love has rebuilt me and architecture of my character. I don't want to be sinner by watching any lady's body parts. I can't do that sin to watch any other lady rather than you. Please pray to God for my success in works and pray for my health too. You have no need to tell me that I will pray for your happiness. It has become my routine to pray for your happiness and good health. Enjoy your foreign life and don't think you will never visit that place which you are visiting right now. Maybe all the places will be visited again with me. You are my believed wife and you have the right to become angry on me. But please change your nature which can't forgive anybody. Please try to be little flexible with the situation and come out from there with little compromises. I am worry about you as I have seen the snow fall in news. God may give you the stamina to tolerate the cold winter and snowy environment.
     My love.........My Empress......My "Madness".........take care of your self. And be careful while snowfalls. Don't go anywhere alone. Always try to be in your friend circle. I am worry about you..........please take care......!!!

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