Saturday, April 14, 2012

...........before I fall apart.........!!!


It was last night
during my studies
stopped my pen
felt to be sleep
but that's not allowed
as deadline is near
I restarted pen
but I was so tired
eyes were paining
felt lack of love
I wanted to see 
those beautiful eyes
and the lovely smile
but remembered your word
"bastard" for me
I could not open 
your photo for awhile
but you'd won again
I watched you 
more than hour
may be you hate me
till my last breath
but, I will love you
till my life's end
love for you in heart
has more increased
I confess to you
I felt dead
from last few hours
without watching you
I have realized that
I have lost me in me
and only you is there
in me and this "bastard's"
ugly and narrow heart
I can't love without you
I have realized last night
my heart is ruined
without you and your love
I bend my knees
and telling you
you are only in me
you are my life
I am just living for you
but die if you will leave
don't let me die
I am not butterfly
I am your love
the "Mad" in love with you
called by self as "Madness"
Tears came in eyes
when seen you again
in my closed eyes
open your photos
without brushing my teeth
my heart felt satisfied
by watching into your eyes
I can't write more
my words can't narrate
what you are for me?
what I feel for you?
hate me till my dead
I will love you more
till my last breath
till the end of life
I call you as you're hating
but can feel you 
in my deep delicate heart
you lives in that world
I can't come there
b'coz I am not cruel
and can't laugh on others
I can feel the pain
of the human hearts
I can't live the life
can't enjoy its fun
but pray to God
for the joy of life
may God give you
whatever you want
I have got your love
in my empty life
I believe you 
heart of my life
and believe you
as path of my life
I urge you again
don't break my heart
don't crush my head
I am feeling so bad
make me again alive
make me again smile
touch me again by heart
I need those eyes
which encourage me for living
don't let me die
come and save me
before I fall apart.........!!!

(P.S.:......Darling......!!!......... what have I done?.......please tell me......Why are punishing me....?.......why do you call me still......"bastard"...? I love you......and will love you till my .....death....... make me........or........break me.........all depends on you........if you still loves me...... tell me those words...... which can make me sure about you....... and your precious LOVE.......I love you........take care......sleepwel in nights......have a joyful days........my heart desperate for you........ but not necessary for you.........to desperate for my LOVE..... I have married you and believed you my wife........ but you are ever free .......for take your own path ............but I am requesting you .......... Be the River of LOVE............. for my thirsty heart.........don't be "Mirage" for it......Lot of Love in my heart........ all is for you........because you have won it....... and became "Empress" of my heart........ you are my everything......... you are my world..... where to go besides you........ I am still at your door......... let me come in......... let me walk with you......... on the path of  LIFE......... take my hand in your hand...... I desperate for you.......I love you......and wriggling .......for your LOVE........ Give me that Rain........ Give me that......... feelings of Paradise......!!!)



 

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