..... Let me live in your heart ....!!!

        It is the time when I want to tell you something. I know, I have ever told everything on the wrong time and always made you more and more miserable. In our love, we have always tried to stretch words. I have revealed that today I am feeling this sorrow of being so far from you because of that event which was created by one of those persons who don't like to see us in pair. It was the attack not only on me but also on our love and the bridge of our trust. The attack was done not to make me physically injured but for making me angry with you at that time which was the most important moments of your career. I was fool and the biggest idiot who have told you some very worst words while that time. I could not hold my temper and done that mistake which the most unforgivable in this world. I was coming from temple to my class and suddenly this event was happened. I went to my home with tears in my eyes and felt so angry, may be anybody on place could feel that same feelings that time. I had told you those all bad words which are not forgivable or forgettable. I have left investigation about it, but it has ruined my love in your heart. A big betrayal became exist in your heart and made you too much disappointed with me and my those words. May be you had stored it in your PC. And you have made the biggest bad decision for my love and life.
        Last night, I was thinking about all this matters which has destroyed my love in your heart. But, .....darling.....!!! .....don't do that. If you will leave me and ruined my love in your heart, you will let the enemy of our love wins. If they have motive to hit me, they could injured me very badly as they were quite healthy. But, they have told only your name and letting me hit them. It was just the plan to destroy our relationship and he/she whatever behind it has done it with his/her desired result. This is called jealousy, if he/she is not having one of us , destroy our relationship forever. He/she has planned it very well and executed it also very good. This is the result, I had told you those bad words at the most important time of your life. And you have decided to never come in back in my life. I had also got the result of that event as my exams are going on from 2nd June and I can't think about my studies as I am quite disappointed. I am that fool who have lost his trust in your love for that time. But, after few hours, I revealed that I have done the biggest mistake of my life which could ruin my love and this life too. I am regretting too much for that event. But, it was done by our enemies. I have no any friend circle, but you have big circle. So many persons love you and want you with them. But there is no any lady who wants me in her life besides you. So, if you want to investigate this matter, you can do it. But, try to understand the matter and think, was I wrong? if it was happened with you, what did you do at that time? I accept, I have told so many stories here, but this event is the thing which has made me frozen. I can't write anything and feel so guilty for that event of bad words which has hurt you at the most important moments of your life and career.
          I have always prayed for your health and career. I have always prayed for your happiness and smiles. But, it was the time when I forgot all this things and done that biggest crime of love planet. I know it is not forgivable or forgettable.  Our enemies has won and our love has got lost. Our weak trust has let them win. tears are streaming unstoppably from my eyes, because my God is witness I have loved only one lady and that is you. I can leave this world forever, only for you. Our love has seen so many ups and downs during this year. But this time, it has got the darkness which has no end. You will never forget and forgive me for that event and I will never forgive myself for those bad words told on wrong time. I need your love to live this life and I will not get that may be forever. All this thought are leading me to the infinite darkness. I am feeling so guilty and sad for this situation of my true love and heart. Can you trust me? I have never wish anything in my life besides God. But after met you, I wish only you in my life. I don't need money, popularity, luxurious life etc. from this world and God. But I need you and your love in my life. You are my happiness, wealth, earning of my heart, my paradise, my everything. But, your decision has proved that you hate me. May be I will not live along with this betrayal. Because, I have loved you by true heart. I  know I am weaker than you at all the point of view by society. But, I can't fight with my heart which can't believe this difference and loving you madly. All the nights have become full of tears and sorrows. There is nobody else in my life who can take your place. I don't know any lady named "Maggie", ok?..... it was all story and shown anonymously to my coach on Facebook. I have never met this named lady. Even never seen this named person.
          My Love.....My Empress.....My "Madness" ......I promise you, I will never make any kind of story with girls names and joint it with me. All my mistakes are unforgivable, but if possible forgive me for all of them. forget all my chatters with friends and coach. I am not living the life now, but life is streaming within it. I will never be alive, if I will not get your love in my life. Stop hatting me, I need your love....please...!!! ...Please don't my tears as my destiny. Save me before I destroy myself. I am tired now and defeated by enemies. I don't know why? but my heart says, you still loves me. And this is the feelings, inspire me to tell you all my heart feelings to you. You have thousands of friends with whom you can share your tears. I have only you with whom I can share my pain and tears. In the nights, I watch to sky and ask God for this punishment of became victim of your sadness. Darling......!!! ......I have written my whole life on the name of you. I agree to be deserved of the punishment from you. I know you will not forgive me for all that mistakes, but try to forgive me by making big heart. I regret by heart and feeling very bad today. Please my "Madness"....forgive me and hit the massive stroke on our enemy's face. Let him/her burning in the fire of jealousy. Hold my hand and show him/her how much we love each other. Try to love me again. I am only yours, don't refuse me. I need you to live this life. ........Kissing your forehead......I love you ......take care....please hold my hand forever....let our love win.......let my love you..... Let me live in your heart ....!!!