Nobody has ever seen the future and about the events going to come in Life. But each moment we learn new lessions from the events and time. Whatever happened in our Life was good forever for us. We met, without any knowledge found myself in Love with you and expressed it here whenever got words by heart. Sorrie!!! if I have hurted you by my words. Believe me, I have never got Love in heart for anybody in past. I was believing that there is no Love in the world, but it is just attraction between two people or one to another. But, all was become only words when I met you. So many days, I had not proper words to express my feelings. I couldn't realized when you had covered my whole Life with only your thoughts. I was feeling you while eating, sleeping, walking, working, learning etc. I learned to write my expressions here from you. I had written all my good, bad, happy, angry etc. feelings here. My phone was always with me. All my days and nights I was waiting for your phone call or message on my phone. I have spent 1 year and more than 7 months with the hope that you will call me one day. I felt jealousy in me when other people around me were getting your words directly on their phone. I have smiled with the words "its my destiny, what to do???". And really, nobody can fight with the destiny. I crapped and cribbed to the God about that, but as usual he was silent and still silently hearing and watching all events. So many times I cried and screamed to get me out of the complex Life, but still never got answer and kept loving you.
Yesterday, I was traveling to Pune from our hometown. I have drive around 300 kms during the tour and enjoyed others' driving too. Neat and clean roads between the mountains. Speed of driving was around 100 kmph and sometimes more than that. We were enjoying the mountains and other natural things. I have marked that mountains are also not same at all places. Himalayan mountains have their own beauty and others like Nilgiri, Aravali, western hills etc. They are different than each other. Want to see the different type of oceans in this Life and may be I will see them soon. I have seen Arabian sea, Hind Ocean and Bay of Bengal only. I want to see Pacific and Atlantic the most. Whatever will be happened in Life, all will be my destiny or God's wishes.
This is the time to celebration of your Birthday. I will not complain you for anything, because I know it will hurt you. So, I need to be ready for the first Deewali of this year. This is the time to share virtual cake (veg. cake.. sorrie) with you. I want to wish you on phone, but unfortunately I have not got that in my destiny. leave it ..... let me celebrate it same like last year. Hey.... ish ... I had spent 4 hours last year to find a proper picture of cake. This time I have spent few days behind that, but still not found any image of good cake. I will give you the birthday gift whenever you will meet me again. I hope you will meet me again. I have seen so many good and bad days during the year. Some days had made me fly in the sky and some had destroyed me in nuclears. But, I had always got stand again with the strength of your Love. Few things and truths I have accepted during that bad time. Few dreams I have seen during good days. I have made few people disappeared from my Life who were cheating me and still trying to destroy me, but this time I have become stronger then before. I have started to concentrate on my work. I know, I have become so weak, but having the faith that I will get my destination one day. I have a flexible nature, but can't be flexible with the events which effect deeply to the heart.
In my eyes, you will never be erased or disappered. I will love you till end of my life, though you will be with me or not. I will scream here till your selection of Life partner. After that, I will Love you silently. You are my Madness .... you are Empress of my heart ... You are my Life ..... with whom I want to spend my whole Life. We are different and grown in different family environments. Our habits are different, thoughts are different. But our need is one and that is Love.
Only few hours are remaining for the grand celebration. Come on, Smile and enjoy each moment with your friends. Nice ladies are around you, just enjoy with them. Missing you here from deep of my heart .... kissing your forehead .... I love you from deep of my heart .... Enjoy the last day of the year....!!!
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