Days are going like speedy water stream. I have found my self little busy and anxious about my health. From early morning to late night all my activities are running to gather. The proposal for mini project has taken too much involvement while its submission for approval. When I had submitted it, the schedule of final exams has been declared. So the final count down of Term End exams is started. It has created some mix feelings of excitement and nervousness. I am thinking about creation of study schedule, because I have never attended my study exams so seriously. But I want to concentrate on my studies and career as there is nothing more to achieve in my life. I am going to walk on my life path with some good and pleasant memories. I was walking on it as before, but there was some empty places which have ever given me many confusions and complexities while taking any decision. But I have face some facts while fallen in love, It has helped me to fight with any severe circumstances of the life. Because I was become unconscious about the reality of the life for some months and sunk in to the deep sea of love. But I have known that there are so many problems of life besides love and heart. I have pious love for the lady in my heart, but it is may be one side love. but one side love have no meaning to others and the world. If we have to survive in this world, we must follow the rules of it. We can not break it, as it will not tolerate that.
The world and its all activities are based on the TIME. We can achieve all the things in the world, but can not get the passed TIME back in our life. I had met the lady and fallen in love with her very deeply, but the time of meeting her was finished and reality is this, she is so far from me and my place. I have accepted it and trying to be kool about my one side LOVE. The relationship can be established between two people , when both are agree for it. But my situation is different from that as it was all my thoughts and .......only thoughts. The dark night has passed away and the new day has started with the glorious morning. I have to accept that it was all from my side only. I am not sure that she loves me or not, but I have to accept the truth that, she is not with me. I have to accept all my liabilities of my home. I love her and I will love her unconditionally till death. May be someday I will meet her again in this life, but that time she will probably identify me or not. Who has seen tomorrow? who knows what will be happen on next moment? I can not live in any guessing or daylight dream. If she loves me, she will come to me. otherwise we are both living our life in our world. May be she is happy in her world. But I am sad and nervous.I have to accept the truth and try to live the life as per the law of the world and the TIME.
The final countdown has started for Final Exams. But before all the schedule will start, I have arranged a tour to some holy places and hill stations. It will be started from 4th October 2011 to around 10th or 15th October 2011. I have decided to spend my empty time in library or with playing electronic keyboard (music).The empty mind can damage my life and all bad thoughts will lead me to bad things, like..smoking or alcoholic drinks. But I have many complains with my friends, who have left me while bad days and bad moments. I can say that we have come alone in this world and we have to walk on the path of life alone, without anybody. I can remember the famous Bengali poetry "Ekla Chalo" of Shri Robindranath Tagore.
Some days ago I had read the famous Gujarati novel "Zer To Pidha Jaani Jaani". This is the story around three main characters - Satyakam and Rohini. It is the story of love for Rohini by Satyakam. The climax of the novel has awaken as it is leading the true lover on the path of devotion. It is really irritates me that why anybody loves the other like this and in which he or she lost everything and finally they got infinity of the lonely path? Why should anybody love to any person as she/he can get nothing against the true and unconditional love? What is his/her fault? can anybody tell me? there is no answer as it was never revealed. Just forgive me for that infinite path because I have stopped hearing from my heart and start using my mind. I will not leave to love her, but will adore her in my free time from my works.
Just two days more and I will start my journey. I am not so happy with my life but I have to compromise with my life and its situations. I have to satisfy all the needs of my family. I have to travel in the whole world and meet different people of it. I want to see all the places where my love have ever visited in her life. I want to see the difference between my motherland and the other parts of the world. I want to know the reason why the people never come back after leaving their motherland. I can not say "Mom" to any other lady who is more beautiful than my mom. Because my Mom has given me this life and show me this world. I can't leave her as she can not provide me the luxurious life. Sorry if anybody will hurt from my this words, but this is true that my Mom is the best woman in this world and no any fairy or goddess can take her place. I love my Mom and try to make her happy with my achievements. Whenever I was passed in any exam, I have seen her happier than me.
It was her idea to visit some holy place and have a little vacation on any hill station. I have accepted her idea and decided to do so. It is the busy time of packing and shopping.
I am ready to start the journey to change my mind and its feelings. May be this journey will make me out from the sadness and emptiness...I am looking forward for so many things ....from ......... the journey.....!!!
The world and its all activities are based on the TIME. We can achieve all the things in the world, but can not get the passed TIME back in our life. I had met the lady and fallen in love with her very deeply, but the time of meeting her was finished and reality is this, she is so far from me and my place. I have accepted it and trying to be kool about my one side LOVE. The relationship can be established between two people , when both are agree for it. But my situation is different from that as it was all my thoughts and .......only thoughts. The dark night has passed away and the new day has started with the glorious morning. I have to accept that it was all from my side only. I am not sure that she loves me or not, but I have to accept the truth that, she is not with me. I have to accept all my liabilities of my home. I love her and I will love her unconditionally till death. May be someday I will meet her again in this life, but that time she will probably identify me or not. Who has seen tomorrow? who knows what will be happen on next moment? I can not live in any guessing or daylight dream. If she loves me, she will come to me. otherwise we are both living our life in our world. May be she is happy in her world. But I am sad and nervous.I have to accept the truth and try to live the life as per the law of the world and the TIME.
The final countdown has started for Final Exams. But before all the schedule will start, I have arranged a tour to some holy places and hill stations. It will be started from 4th October 2011 to around 10th or 15th October 2011. I have decided to spend my empty time in library or with playing electronic keyboard (music).The empty mind can damage my life and all bad thoughts will lead me to bad things, like..smoking or alcoholic drinks. But I have many complains with my friends, who have left me while bad days and bad moments. I can say that we have come alone in this world and we have to walk on the path of life alone, without anybody. I can remember the famous Bengali poetry "Ekla Chalo" of Shri Robindranath Tagore.
Some days ago I had read the famous Gujarati novel "Zer To Pidha Jaani Jaani". This is the story around three main characters - Satyakam and Rohini. It is the story of love for Rohini by Satyakam. The climax of the novel has awaken as it is leading the true lover on the path of devotion. It is really irritates me that why anybody loves the other like this and in which he or she lost everything and finally they got infinity of the lonely path? Why should anybody love to any person as she/he can get nothing against the true and unconditional love? What is his/her fault? can anybody tell me? there is no answer as it was never revealed. Just forgive me for that infinite path because I have stopped hearing from my heart and start using my mind. I will not leave to love her, but will adore her in my free time from my works.
Just two days more and I will start my journey. I am not so happy with my life but I have to compromise with my life and its situations. I have to satisfy all the needs of my family. I have to travel in the whole world and meet different people of it. I want to see all the places where my love have ever visited in her life. I want to see the difference between my motherland and the other parts of the world. I want to know the reason why the people never come back after leaving their motherland. I can not say "Mom" to any other lady who is more beautiful than my mom. Because my Mom has given me this life and show me this world. I can't leave her as she can not provide me the luxurious life. Sorry if anybody will hurt from my this words, but this is true that my Mom is the best woman in this world and no any fairy or goddess can take her place. I love my Mom and try to make her happy with my achievements. Whenever I was passed in any exam, I have seen her happier than me.
It was her idea to visit some holy place and have a little vacation on any hill station. I have accepted her idea and decided to do so. It is the busy time of packing and shopping.
I am ready to start the journey to change my mind and its feelings. May be this journey will make me out from the sadness and emptiness...I am looking forward for so many things ....from ......... the journey.....!!!
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